I have no more recollection on how or when did my ringing ear happened but it is now really bothersome. I just hope that it won't get worse as it is right now or I might kill myself with the ringing issue that it does. It really is torturous with all the essence of the word because it is constant and doesn't improve or go away at all.
I so many things to blame about my hearing issue, I can still hear okay but maybe some of the high pitched voice or sounds are not any longer within my range. But it is possible that one of the culprits about my ringing ear was my bone itself because our inner ear has the smallest bones in the body. So if I do have the bone problem then my ear could ge affected and it is manifesting itself already.
Deafness is one of my fears so I am trusting God not to allow that thing to happen to me because obviously it is a real heavy addition to my already heavy burdens which I am carrying already all these years and I do not know if I would ever win against. So it is like one enemy after another which is like I am really up for a losing battle and it is even hard to think about it.
But deafness is just one of my concerns because there is a risk for me to get blinded too. Thankfully my facial bone receded a bit which is why I am glad that at least there is also a possibility that I won't lose my eyesight. The loss of eyesight would come from the optic nerve getting pinched by a slowly enlarging facial bone so since it is receding or maybe stopping, I might get to keep my eyesight because of that.
Leontiasis is not just another bone ailment, for me it is like a curse because of the hardship that I have to experience in having this kind of bone problem. The painful part is that my joints are not getting any better as evidenced by the pain in my body. So I just have to use pain relievers for that kind of body misery otherwise I will not be able to move freely even with such negligible routine such as taking a bath, now it had became a hard chore to do, more tasking than carrying a heavy rock on my back.
Now the pain reliever that my doctor prescribes me doesn't work if not costing me much, that is why I have to resort in taking an NSAID pain reliever for the matter. But I think that my NSAID just makes my hearing problem worse by contributing to its ringing. I do not know what to do now but maybe I can try to ask for another pain reliever or maybe try that transdermal patch that I used before, but still it is an NSAID drug so I just have to try again if it would work without using any other pain reliever that might affect my mind or even make me dependent on it.
This is a big problem, I do not want to get those pain relievers that will make me drowsy or I will not be able to at least get productive with my remaining body function. The only part of my body that is still working fine is my brain so I do not want it to get affected by such Psychoactive medicine no matter how I want my pains to have a lasting and effective solution.
I just hope that soon I could find a better way to relive my pain because they are not going away, they are getting worse even. SO with this all I needed more prayers because I know it works like what happened in the past.