Its not really a call as much as it is screaming at the top of my lungs!!!
For awhile now i have been struggling to keep up but ive managed. I have a managing position in a company my girlfriend and i own two (really crappy) cars we have an apartment with internet and a washer and dryer. I recently got out of a court dispute with my ex over custody of my first son iden and won however im in a crapload of debt because of it.
In all honesty i dont ask much for help, its not my style i always find a way. But today started out as one of the greatest days in awhile i went to our first sonogram and saw my second child for the first time and we found out just how far along we are :)
On my way to work my transmission was making some funny noises so i stopped by my brothers shop real quick to swap out the fluid. When i drained it you can see just how aweful it was. But upon putting the plug back in the casing around it cracked and now the plug is barely hanging in there. I added as much fluid as i could but i was already late as hell to wirk so i took an extra quart with me anticipating adding it once i got there.
Well that didnt happen as soon as i got on the highway and threw it in to fifth gear it went for a second and then it would pop out. For about a mile id hold it in gear and still pop out, pop out. So i pulled over to a gas station turned my car off and popped the hood. The plug was still there i see fluid a little bit but it doesnt look that bad. Maybe i can drive in 4th gear to work.
Get back in and turned the key over......
Bratttaatatatatata..... brattatatata
Nothing.
Fuck.
My fuel line has clogged up i pulled the injectors and they are covered in gunk. 
This is where i knew things were bad. I have zero dollars in the bank and im out of my primary ride. I go pick up my son for two weeks on sunday rent is due on monday and so is the rest of our bills. I have no groceries in my kitchen and im really starting to feel it. I then called my boss to give him the "sorry sir but i wont be making it in" speach. He asks whats wrong and i tell him and im a little unnerved by this point and he says if i cant make it to work tomorrow im gonna get let go. He appreciates my hard work and dedication but my car problems are not his he needs someone to run the shop and if im not there to do it im no good to him.
My heart just shattered to pieces. Ive worked tirelessly to provide for my family ive always put them first even getting transferred 30 minutes from home just for job security taking pay cuts because the economy here sucks. By now im feeling pretty hopeless as you can imagine.
Now back to my original statement, ive learned through this community amazing things are possible. And im in dire need i would not take the time to bother an entire community if i didnt feel i could find some solutions through it.
My family depends on me to survive and my precious little boy doesnt deserve to suffer because ive my short comings ive exhausted alot of options since all this happened a few hours ago and with out the cash and replacement parts theres nothing more that i can do. I need my car to make money to provide for him, and my pregnant girlfirend whom i love equally as much.
Out of repsect for the community in which i play a part in i am not here to beg i come before you all broken and humbled. i dont know what else to do then to bring it before you all and ask for some help i am incredibly greatful for any kind of support be it best wishes or a simple resteem you will not be judged for moving on but any time spent with me will not be forgotten or go unnoticed or unappreciated.
Ive seen some pretty incredible posts raise awareness for some pretty incredible things. If i can get enough people to see this post and just show there support in the form of an upvote or comment any ideas or if they have solutions i may have over looked please leave a comment. Anyone is welcome to reach out to me in steemit chat if they have any questions or want to speak with me personally about any details.
A share an upvote a comment a different point of view.
Please im in need of it all.
When i started here on steemit a month and a half ago it was to ultimately aid in the achievement of one goal. And that was to provide a rich and bright future for my kids. A home not an apartment. A new car not a beat up 97 civic. Nothing luxurious but a life thats safe.
Thank you and godspeed to anyone else out there struggling
