So 2 days ago very high fever hit me and my whole neck started to hurt and began to fill with pus..i could barely eat and speak and drink water...i began taking some Nurofen - high dosage and use Green Tantum spray...
First day when i went to bed i was feeling so sick and alone...and my thoughts were about being in Gods arms and seeing how He gets me through water and telling me that i'm his child and that i'm never alone and He loves me and He's beside me...i prayed at Him to help me get better because i was so frighten that i could end up at hospital and with perfusion and with different antibiotics which would do good for my neck but would temporary destroy my whole body and i don't even have money for antibiotics or to go in hospital as i'm not medical ensured because i don't work...like an experience i had for one month at age of 15...and i prayed that He guards and keeps my kids safe and healthy and my husband and my parents and my husband's parents...
Second day i was still feeling bad but my husband acted surprisingly nice and came to me to bring me more Nurofen because i finished the pills i had...Today, third day..i saw the infection isn't retreating and i tried to sleep as much as i could to let the body recover as i can't eat to much...
While sleeping i woke up a few seconds and i thought to take another high dosage ( 2 x) of Nurofen and went back to sleep..when i woke up i was sweating like a horse and i called my husband telling him i was out of spray and explaining that i need it because disinfects the area with pus and intensifies healing..He wanted to shout at me because he had a bad day but he restrain himself and came to bring me the spray and i could repay him back the money...After when i look in the mirror to check the pus from left and right parts of my neck i noticed that the big part of the pus on the right side was...90% gone...and i began crying and feeling thankful to God and to my husband...and i could feel and still feel only appreciation and Love toward God and toward the man which has been given to me by God...toward my kids which He gave to me and my husband...i can't describe the feeling but i know it's His Love...when my illness will end i will try to be a better person for the ones i love the most because this counts more in ones life...and never ever forget again about God's Love and appreciation for Him and for what He did and what He is for all of us!
