Do you ever want to go to a place where no one else knows you ?
or do you want to eat alone in your favorite fastfood chain?
Maybe sometimes your think of walking alone at nigth
All of that is a great way to recharge yourself.
it doesnt mean your anti social.
is just that sometimes we need to do things alone and we need to enjoy our own self.
This past few days i feel like empty, I cant sleep at night thinking all of my problems. I dont know how to escape this kind of feeling. I said that if only i can stop thinking all of those repeating scenarios in my head i will do it, If only i can stop thinking that im not good enough i will do it, If only i could stop myself from loving the man who i can't and will never be mine i will do it
While i was at my room browsing the internet i saw a movie clip i watch it and i saw a girl living in the top of the mountain because she is allergic to the internet, While i was watching it im amaze on the location that the movie located the mountain and the clouds i honestly feel at peace when i watch that
That is why i decided to go to the mountain. and besides its my restday at work so im free. the first place that i think is in teresa rizal it has a lot of nice mountains.
I immediately fix my thinks and take a shower while i was in the shower i feel so excited and a little bit afraid because im only have myself and its a mountain. But yeah there's no turning back now
I take a jeep to junction and in junction i take jeepney that will pass in teresa may-iba and i take a trycycle and ask the jeepney driver to take me to the mountain. they ask me if im going alone and i said yes, They said that why do i go alone its dangerous. I said that its ok
while i was walking going up on the mountain. I was so desperate that time and a litle bit curios on how it feels like to be in an isolated place where you can shout and cry, At first im a litle bit afraid because this is my first time going up in the mountain and that firat time i only have myself
While i was walking up in the mountain im smilling because i see myself when i was young before i dont want to be alone or to be in dark room but now im here walking up in an isolated mountain alone
When i reach the top of the mountain I scream very very loud. I shout all of what's inside my head, all of my problems and all of what's hurting me after that i laugh and smile like im crazy, i can't believe i will do this kind of stuff. I can believe i will go this far but i dont regret anything and i will defimitely gonna do this again
While i was resting from a long walk i think of what i just did. I realize that is naturao to have problems. What matters the most is how you will face that problem and how you will handle it
I realize too that its okay to be alone sometimes and enjoy your own self sometimes. Its like charging yourself with good thougths
SO TREAT YOURSELF SOMETIMES WITH THE THINGS THAT ONLY YOU CAN GIVE.
THANK YOU G
AND TO MY MENTOR WHO IS ALWAYS @antonette @iwriteTHERE THROUGH MY UPS AND DOWNS
THANK YOU TO MY STEEMIT DIVERSIFY TEAM
