Some months backs, after my relationship didn't work out the way I wanted. I went through so many epidodes of depression, anxiety, stress unnecessary anger and a lot of negative stuff, I simply thought I wasn't in control of my life.
I suddenly lost love for all the things I loved and became more indecisive than I ever was. The only time I'd be normal back then was when I was around friends and family. Funny thing is I masked all this depression and stress just to be the nigga that I was.
Only one person actually knew what was going on in my life, my realest G!
Frankly, during those periods I used to play my best game (football manager) but not heavily as compared to my love days. I got proposals from very nice girls which I accepted not to make them feel bad (they didn't know I was a mess) but with time they saw I had lost the little love I could give so they left me and I didn't feel shit.
I was very broken, but I didn't want to address it because of Mandem pride. Unfortunately for me, my laptop got spoilt along the line and I had to fall to my phone(I became more addicted to social media than ever). to the extent of catching feelings over unnecessary stuff. I even initiated relationships but just couldn't keep up. Next, I tried music, it worked a little but didn't completely fix my depression until I met my saviour. "MEDITATION"
Part 2 coming up!