admiration let remain admiration. what all of you ever feel the love? when heart blossomed see someone who we like over in front of US, making the heart of this seemed berdegub fast. that's a glimpse of the feeling that I feel when myself see figure girl named rifa. girl so perfect dimataku. "hayooo ... again Clay who tuh?" whispered Rian from behind that bring his mouth in my ear. gaze cynical now my show me to the parasite Rian that instantly make it wrong behavior and run terbirit-ass fear without dare talk any. that's Rian, he always memojokkanku to be said feelings this on rifa. Oh Yes! introduce my name andrian, but just call andri alone need not bother. I sit in high school class 2 Department of science. everyday job only silent in class, never out except when home school. Mr. cool, that's sebutanku in this class. just Rian wants to be friends with me, I wonder the Rian it feel at home once friends with the quiet like me, what because our name equally there Rian his Yes? fact that in think every day he always kutindas like just now. and girl me talking about earlier he Idol my heart. first love to date, friends from kindergarten to high school, our House was copy adjacent. Moreover to Express like, scolds Sapa only even we never even though I am one class to him. but I never dare to Express the contents of my heart to him, I did just give him a piece of poetry every home school my put drawer her desk with give initials A. and even then I do secretly so as not caught by it. "rifa" shouted guy perched on the front door class my with style Sok cool. he ferly girlfriend rifa at this time. reason other than non dared to reveal the feeling of my this on rifa also because I know rifa has anyone have, I don't want to damage happiness rifa. although different class every day ferly always come pick rifa here. compared with the guy nerds like me, it may rifa more matches ferly handsome and also famous in school. jealous? Yes heck, but trying my buried remember I not who-siapanya rifa. "patient Yes sob" said Rian holding shoulder to my who knows how long standing behind me. "what you ghost?" I asked joking but still shows face very serious Pa Rian. "bercandamu not funny sob. tuh Clay Idol your heart go same guy other, how long like this?" said Rian menasehatiku. words too often me hear from the mouth of sweet Rian but never my consider only kujadikan as wind ago. "Hey an .. you hear not the hell?" snapped Rian to start saturated with my attitude that had been not respond to his words. "you it chatty once the hell" dumelku then leave Rian sleep. "yaaah! even sleep. is up to you" said Rian slightly upset ago leave me to go. honest, if it can I want to remove the feeling of my this on rifa. see it with another man made me not quiet in lelapnya my. if I am not a Coward wants to reveal the contents of his heart since the first, and what was said to be Rian certainly true, up when my life as if I don't want to Express my feelings actual on rifa.
Ting ... Ting ... Ting ... Bell login tolling which means lessons IPA will begin. "good morning children?" welcome mom beautiful with style made sweet new entered my class. "good afternoon mom! this right already hours 12" error one schoolgirl to mom beautiful. you know? by simply put mom beautiful agreed the words of the student without feeling a little guilty in the US and back shows style Sok sweet. not have to wonder, that's the nature of Mrs. beautiful sometimes not we understand. chatty hell Yeah, but I herankan nature centilnya it looh why not changed-changing Yes! why so gosipin ma'am beautiful, we back to the topic of the beginning. this time mom beautiful asked US to make a proposal that consists of 2 people. tasks easy it is say, but I believe is of course I one group with Rian, that's what makes me a little upset. "aadduuuhh ... task again males I" complained Rian softly while scratching head not itching. "later must I also working" twit my heart ago divert attention is now on rifa the middle fun talk serious with daughter friend sebangkunya. "rifa, you one group with andri, Yes" Strand of the word suddenly out of the mouth mom beautiful surprise me and make my attention now focused only to mom beautiful. sense of disbelief, it true that I can one group with rifa, this heart as if hovering hear it. when my heart is blossomed heard good news, the daughter friend bench rifa refused firm decision mom beautiful with a variety of reasons that's because every day daughter always with rifa in doing any task. "he was not able to see people seneng what?" dumelku softly but it looks like Rian still can listen to what I said. "quiet sob, I help, Okey" chirps Rian suddenly encouraging me never me know what it means. "mom andri let the same rifa, daughter with my just how do?" said Rian sudden brandishing hand and argue like that. "hiii ... ooouuuggaaahh. dream what I overnight how can one group with you?" reject daughter spontaneous make all students in grades laugh see the behavior of silly their mutual collided mouth. "it .. it, this decision was ratified so don't there is protests" the sidelines mom beautiful in the middle of the war mouth between daughters vs. Rian now start dim. "but mom ..." said daughter is still not accept the decision mom beautiful but it looks like he was not accept any input. the time berlalau so fast, Bell home reads, which forced me to immediately trim books bercecer not known on the table and immediately went home. as usual before to move away myself always took to peek rifa in class middle read the poem my leave morning. "the Lord ... please help he closed his eyes, accompany in a dream beautiful. in order to day he woke up with a smile sweetness, tell him that I want to be a lover of the best for him" said rifa smile when reading a letter from me that after that he put in a bag tiny hers and immediately went away. I never understand what rifa do to the letters I gave him, is stored or even dibuangnya. However, I will not menyarah up here, although I don't know how feelings me but that is definitely I want to always make smiling with the poems that my carving for him.
step by step I walked own, given the location of the school is not far from home made I have to walk. step my stopped when I know a figure Angel provide a smile thin first shown to me. when I past the front of House rifa. heart now started berdegub fast. as soon as possible my ran for a breath of oxygen and soothing my heart in the middle of dark night without had time to reply to smile given rifa earlier to me. taste believe still enveloped this heart always soon lay my body on the mattress. - morning cloudy, accompanied by voice rush of rain never-stop. I sit stunned while sighed witnessed drizzle the middle flushed Earth on the Terrace yourself. "andri" cried a woman who sound familiar my ears. my view rifa the middle ran at me while bring umbrella to protect it from the splash rainwater now start Reda. "the Indonesian ... rifa, why you here?" I asked stammered that as if in disbelief, the person I love already in front of me at this time. "mother could not transport me, I was told depart with you. it's okay right?" said rifa smiling sweet in front of. the Lord is this a gift, the years I dream to be able to talk to rifa although only word and now finally that dream come true, even he take me go together. like saying that says "once paddle two, three Island exceeded". he he he. "Hey ... but i'm walking, what you want to stay together RIF?" asked my chitchat actual in my heart want once I went with him and hope rifa not right refused. "today the rain, isn't walking better" he said that back smile to me. immediately my step my feet to take the umbrella and depart with rifa to school. no one thing that we are talking about except school. so stiff and sometimes answers dilontarkannya any kind of cool to me, is because of this new first time we talk. when will enter the gate school accidentally we met with ferly, which immediately may rifa turned away from my view and prefer with ferly. and again, my heart hurt, perhaps it is this is a reply appropriate for the cowardly like myself. Sun has appeared light up log in to the sidelines window my class. Bell break it reads from earlier, but friends dikelasku more memilh sit dikursinya respectively. "an .. to the cafeteria Yuk !?" invite Rian. "why? males I" starting my while putting the book was I read on the table. "bantuin mom canteen Wash dishes an .. already know want to eat why still wondering, let me laper" whined Rian me. forced I keep permintaanya without dare to comment. arriving at the cafeteria while waiting Rian being booking Soto favorite, my go back to read the book was was delayed because participate Rian. "can I sat down?" asked rifa sudden stand behind me and directly sitting beside the haven't had time to my reply to the question was. "alone?" asked rifa me. "no!" I replied short and it feels this heart start berdegub toned almost I had passed out because not believe see rifa sitting beside right now. "tumben not the same ferly?" I asked chitchat. "i've been broken an!" responsible rifa with the tone of cool. "the be ... really?" I asked stammered that clarify the back questions rifa earlier. rifa nodded slowly. it's news exciting for myself, but for some rifa who'd was only still looked at the food there before him. "eh .. there rifa tumben own where daughter?" asked Rian sudden appears and sit in front of US. "Yan, you really a crush on daughter Yes?" asked rifa with the tone of serious, whereas the me know the real Rian not like the daughter, but somehow Rian always interfere daughter. that's what my confusing of the nature of strange my best friend this. "joking RIF. but in the appeal I there seems to be more happy now" said Rian that seems to start various with me. "who Yan?" I asked pretended as he stepped foot Rian and smiling fake before rifa. "nothing really, joking again. he he he" said Rian smile while holding the pain and continue to take Soto favorite.
you that there-there is only Yan! "said rifa chuckle. see it, somehow my heart so excited, is this the feeling of my love real. if rifa know the feeling of my this. love really sincere for him. honest, I was never going out. I also don't know how it feels have a girlfriend, but my know certainly" smile rifa valuable for me "." Mr. cool again read what? "toleh rifa me with a smile to adorn the his face." Oh ... Oh. so Mr. cool NIH. anyway I went first Yes affairs "chirps Rian with laughter tempting then go." your friend's strange Yes, an "said rifa returning showing off smile." Rian it like that since the first "I replied without expression." so to my House not? we have not been working on his duty bi beautiful right? "said rifa while seize the book was my read." return? "forced me while trying to take my book is taken rifa with sigapnya rifa continued can menghindariku until I difficulty menagkapnya and finally give up." later home school I kerumahmu "I told resigned but still shows the face of cool my him." timid "said rifa suddenly while restore the book was direbutnya from me that makes I was amazed and think various by his words just now." let's go back to the class. "said rifa return again smile sweet dihadapanku. is it possible rifa know my feelings and is also the sign of rifa for me, it I could not mean the meaning of the sentence rifa earlier." I love you "if the words can my said right now. only on waktulah I can believe, either when and where I will definitely say it. Bell home finally reads. as usual myself always stroll itself when home school, only the company of wind that had been blow refreshes my body moistened sweat." huuufftt! own again "chimes me in the heart continue down the road." andri! "shouted someone from the rear if i'm not one of it definitely sound rifa." you the road fast's, slowly Dong? "grumbled rifa that run out of breath because after me." don't you say? "I replied relaxed." basic don't have a feeling "said rifa angry that then went on the way alone while I was silent contemplate the words earlier that makes rifa angry. what might be my attitude was outrageous. I am really man-earned even to pay attention to women who me like only, I can't, how could there is a woman who like me." Hey, how long you continue to live? fast take me home "shouted rifa from a distance ago resume the course. immediately, I am one after another rifa as soon as that my can and come with him. after nearly 10 minutes we walked, finally arrived i'm in the residence of the House rifa new first time I entered after 13 I served as friends. even have to know his parents since the first maybe I rarely out i'm not so familiar with the people around, sometimes I don't know the name." this please? are you sure thirsty "said rifa which presents a drink sitting next to me, observe each word I wrote carefully and serious." actual you it smart also Yes, but why never you show me? "asked rifa curious while continue reading writings seriously." you don't need to know all about me, isn't it? "again as usual my answer questions rifa with casually." a little boy like want to convey something through a smile. smile again as first, if I have to convince child-like it with a sincerity mine? rest assured the world is still there I that there will always be in your side. what you know it's, the owner of this poem? "asked rifa suddenly that makes me snapped surprised to hear it, it instead of poetry I give earlier when home school. behavior me now awry, my eyes glanced everywhere indeterminate direction could only be swallowed to reduce the sense of gugupku ongoing."'s, you know it not? "said rifa for the second time." MU ... maybe it from penggemarmu "I replied stammered." really? think he's not a fan of late, but ghost Sukanya harass serenity people "said rifa the resume activities to read." harass "though not that my want. objectives the beginning of my sent her poetry every day is that rifa know that there is someone who is a genuine love him until now. if that makes it disturbed, then inevitably i'm willing to give up.
but somehow katika I read a letter from it all this time, making I fell in love on each writing he give "up rifa then that makes me feel touched heard that sentence." he certainly very likes Yes RIF? "asked my pretended already know the answer, if I can say that the person is me, but does not seem to be right now. slowly I can certainly make you love me RIF with the poems that my created for you. and thanks to this day I am grateful because I can be shared with you not only that I can see your smile that you show me. tomorrow as usual current home school I took away to provide a poem my put on the desk drawer rifa. looks there oddities that I feel or just feel only. not usually all my friends in the class home simultaneously, which I know there is always the watcher last are in this class up I have to wait long to deliver this letter. although my heart excited However firasatku like to say there are different. when I put a piece of poetry in desk drawer rifa, in the same time I found around the poem my write for this right in the drawer this." so that's right you Yes an "welcome sound of a woman who has been my know from the back of which made me spontaneous silent and non dared to move slightly sidikitpun. my see friends one my class gathered and memergokiku with gaze cynical now they show me including rifa that as if not believe this incident. seems since the beginning of them had planned it all with hold Rian already know my secret from the beginning." basic nerds, what you think with this you can get love rifa "cried ferly in the middle heningnya atmosphere made the feeling upset and wants hit his head, as shall bear shame in front of all the students." ferly, courteous "chirps rifa the start up blood." but we dropped out because of this person right, because of poetry every day you receive 'chimes ferly are not be outdone accused given rifa instantly passed with face upset. really all because of me. heard that I don't know longer have to talk what I think what I do is correct but the fact even make poignant people I love. I walked out without any word terujar, my heart felt sick and eager hit myself who don't know have to do what. "scary!" to the second time I heard strands of the word of mouth rifa that made me stop the footsteps and think a moment. "every day you mnyuruhku to hear your heart, but you never once want to listen to my heart" chimes rifa holding sobs. my origins self reverse my body before rifa and all the children. my walked slowly until the right in front of looking at eyes middle glazed. I kneeling right before him as he reached out and trying to uncover it all. "no one the rose, no doll, no ring or the other. there is only words say I love you, would you be my boyfriend rifa?" somehow I can encourage me for declared my love on rifa. that kufikirkan is that not always love my buried, perhaps this is the right time. "thank you for love me and start now you mind I learn to love you" said rifa while memapahku to stand with sweet smile that swathed of the look on his face. and that is rifa receive my feelings. God! thank you have to answer all benediction my, is now my business not vain and finally the love of my buried during the 13 missed it. all students who was looking at me cynical, now switch applauded for both of US. what you know? actually behind the nature of cool that I give on rifa there are good that do not want to my expressed but it was my carried out. I just want you to know that in the dark life there are still I will always be a light in the lamp of your heart. the end