Experience itself is the guiding key to my life these days, it's just so easy to forget. Experience itself has always brought me through, has always proved that detours have merit and that I will always be alright in the end. Experience has always feathered the hardest of falls and landed me as gently as possible, even when it didn't look that way.
And yet it's so easy to ignore experience, to ignore objective pointers that prove I am a lucky man, it's like trickster entities are sitting on my shoulder whispering into my ear to steer my focus away from my source of strength. And as my lady recently reminded me: Maybe I have been letting them get too strong lately.
In trying so hard to utilize the mind to achieve, I prevented myself from reaching the ideal outcome from happening that could have been manifested with ease and little effort. On insisting in these old ways of doing things I am grinding my teeth down when in fact everything is golden and I am blessed. When I simply need to take what's in front of me and don't insist on it having to be hard.
Going into 2021 I want to focus more on the good and trust more in what I know, rather than idolizing the intellect to such degrees that it dismantles my entire reality into fearful chatter of the mind. Not seeing the forest for all the trees has been stressful...
I welcome clarity and I welcome the gently flow of life. The ease of it all.
These past months have shown me that bitterness and stubborness are no longer valid pathways to follow. If I want something I have to go about it with more ease and faith than I have been. The sooner I make that change the better.
Grateful to finally realize it, now I just have to trust it and walk that way day by day no matter how scary the path looks in the mind! Sign of our times huh? <3
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