Again, I'm sat at work, on hour 6 of my 24 Hour Shift, working in a Children's care home.
This is my second year of being in this line of work, I'm not full time, I'm Bank Staff but currently working full time hours, which is great for the Bank account, but let's be honest, I'd rather be elsewhere!
Life before this job was pretty bloody great, money, free time, party lifestyle, travel, meeting new people and always having exciting plans! Now.. the only plans I've made are to pass a maths course, in order to get onto a Degree Course to become a social worker.
Back in the day, when I worked in Key Wet Florida, and this is how I'd spend my days.
Urgh sounds so bloody boring 😴 22 Year Old Me, would have laughed if she heard where her life is now and where its heading!
Do you believe in education? A career? Or are you a person who doesn't live life by society's rules and finds their own path, their own spark and joy in what creates your money!? Does it fund the lifestyle you want? Or are you just scraping by, but bloody happy?
I think we all dream of a life, living in a nice house, doing bare minimum work but with maximum profits, if anyone knows the overnight source to that lifestyle hit me up, coz Mama is bored 🤣
I guess what we should be thinking is "Do I enjoy this? Am I happy? Am I doing this for myself?"
When the reality with alot of us is "It pays the bills"
Urgh what awful words.. Bills. Outgoings. Tax. Insurance... we're a slave to all of these! We spend half of our lives, working to earn money to give it away to these gross things 😬
Find the balance, in everything you do! If you want to put those hours in, make sure you take the same hours out! I'm currently working the cold months away, saving so I can take the warm months off! And if England doesn't give me them warm months, I'm fucking off to find the sun!
Im 28 now, no kids, live at home (don't judge its cushty as fuck and I never have to worry about money and can save save save) my partner is 23, an aircraft engineer and working towards his goals. We're polar opposites when it comes to life goals but he gives me the drive to do more and better, so this degree I mentioned. Its government funded, so no debt and I get paid to take the degree... amazing right? Fuck I love the UK! So being 28, the degree starts in January I won't be finished till I'm 31 but I'll have a good career as soon as I'm done and be on my way to making money. But 3 years. Of work. And dedication, is not something I ever imagined for myself. But the opportunity is there so I guess I gotta grab it by the balls and ride it all the way to the top!
Obviously fears and anxiety run through my mind everyday...
Commitment
Failure
Do I even like the job?
Is my age against me?
Loss of freedom?
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read my current thoughts and feelings. If anyone is a maths tutor and fancies helping a Gal out, hit me up! Because jeezzz this isn't my strong suit!
