Ok guys, I want to pay attention to whats going on here. I can’t, i’m in a lot of pain currently, the infection in my tooth isnt going away and the numb pain lingering under the oragel is actually driving me a little nuts, I currently don’t have a dental plan and cannot afford to go get this molar pulled. I’ve had teeth problems my whole life, but this is brutal. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can barely focus on a blog while i’m reading it, the kids keep my hands full too and i’m just so tired.
I wish I could do a better job. I wish I had a mentor to show me how to be all that I’m capable of, I’ve never had much but I’ve always worked hard and tried my best. I need more though, need, not want. What I want is to be healthy and secure enough financially to do things with my family without worry. Is that asking too much?
What though? What does it take. How many times do I almost have to die, car accidents, house invasion and beatdowns. Loss atop of loss. Hell I even got into crypto this winter. Still losing. My account grows everyday but the dollar amount is barely moving as cryptocurrencies get stomped on by the people who want to keep us poor and in debt.
All I want is for my body to not hurt. My wife to go to sleep knowing we can afford diapers and food. I hate my situation, I love my followers, my new found home, my new found passion and outlet, but I can barely even spend time here considering all my steemin is done on an old iphone and If it breaks I will have no way to see you guys.
I really dont want things to continue being hard. It’s been 25 years of getting nowhere, I need something to change, I need people to listen and get behind cryptocurrency in the way that I am. See its potential to change the world.
Sorry for being such a downer today, I’m just sore, frustrated and I know I can explain those frustrations to you guys and maybe get advice or support through this blockchain community.
Will forever push forward.
In math we trust.
Much love