I went through a crisis... It was the longest hiatus in my Hive activity. I have been writing articles for seven years, and for the first time there was a break of more than a month... You must have noticed: I haven't written in a long time. I hope you're looking forward to continuing the stories of our #TheLongestTrip
And before I write my impressions about our wonderful meeting in Katowice, about new acquaintances in Krakow, about our decision to go to Split and participate in Hivefest
I will tell you what caused my absence for so long...
A few years ago, sad events shook my calm and stable life in my native Ukraine... First, I experienced the death of both parents... Once during a covid illness, my heart rate rose to 140 beats per minute at rest and continued to grow... Old the wise pharmacist at the pharmacy advised me to buy "Corvitol" tablets. The little white pill did a miracle - my heart rate stabilized. One pill was enough. I recovered... Later, a few months later, the war started... It was like a terrible dream! It was a shock and stress to my tolerant nervous system... And again I took this miracle pill. Two and a half years have passed since then. I have visited many countries, I never take any medicine with me other than iodine, black charcoal for food poisoning and tea tree essential oil. My attitude "I am a young and healthy person, I have strong immunity" - works perfectly! but I had these amazing white pills with me that somehow inexplicably normalize my heart rate. I didn't even read the instructions, I carried these pills with my money as a lucky charm... After all, I'm alone on a trip abroad with my two daughters. And I should be fine!... So it's been more than two years. My pills expired and I threw them away. I went to the pharmacy to buy a new pack. Let them be just in case. It's like a "magic wand" that saves my heart from stress and emotional upheaval. I've been under a lot of stress lately. Many unresolved old emotional issues from the past troubled me, which I tried to bury in the depths of my soul, which I was afraid to face face to face...
The last few days I felt some strange tension, as if I was stuck in an outlet and an electric current was going through my body... I haven't measured my blood pressure in a long time. But usually my normal blood pressure is 110/70. While in the pharmacy, I saw a pressure gauge, and I decided to measure... There were different indicators, they changed. I saw 150/90. I thought: I must have sat down suddenly. Indicates an error. When I got home, I asked my friend, whose guest I was staying with at the time, for a pressure gauge. 150/100... I panicked !!! I didn't know what to do with it. Then it was 165 /100... !!! But the pulse was 75, the pulse was normal. My hands were cold. The daughter began to panic, to insist on calling an ambulance. I refused. I took some pills. I normalized the pressure. But I began to think... I always look for a psychosomatic problem in all my health disorders. Our body is like a unique and perfect machine. If we use it carelessly and incorrectly, it breaks, but...
It does not break immediately. It gives signals as if an orange light will light up on the dashboard of the car. I ignored the signals for a long time. Now the red light came on. I needed to act immediately!
I bought a watch that measures my stress level. I made an appointment with a cardiologist... I did an echocardiogram, a cardiogram... Everything was normal, but there was a hormonal failure, neurosis, depression, panic attacks...
I lived through several more hypertensive crises. Blood pressure readings were 157/135...180/120.... My body was rebelling! My body was screaming... It was like it was trying to warn me of danger if I didn't change! If I didn't get out of my soul old emotional problems... After all, the cause of increased pressure is repressed emotions... I made a decision to change! I went through therapy. I am now on the road to healing. I took responsibility for my emotions. I made a decision to come to Hivefest healthy!
The main thing is to love yourself, forgive yourself for all your past mistakes, forgive everyone who hurt you, let go of the old from your life, move forward with faith, filling your heart, your blood with joy, happiness, love...
See you at Hivefest 💕💕💕