I like to start by saying that I am in a not-so-happy place currently and that will show in the tone and direction this post will follow. Not anything negative per se. Just the typical indifferent post you get from me occasionally.
Speaking about posting. I will admit things haven't actually been the same for a while now. Some many contributing factors but majorly I have lost my vibe, or should I say the reason for being here.
What brought you into cryptocurrency?
First of all, it was money, and then the prospect of being part of something that could possibly change the world. Now, the world doesn't really matter that much to me. Probably I will get back to that place after my escape but currently, none of these things mean anything to me. When last did I rant about anything? When last did I speak so passionate about anything? When last did I put that much effort into anything? And I think it's showing in the way I approach things on here. I don't even know what's going on around here anymore. Once upon a time, this used to be my life.
It is always better when you have a reason
At some point I wanted to write and earn money--that was my reason
At some point I wanted to part of the bigger picture and contribute to the development of steem--that was my reason
Now, well I am just looking for the quickest way to earn $250 so I can write my IELTS exam next year and I don't want to feel some way about it. Clearly, most of us are here for the money, so I am not doing anything wrong.
I am still here though. One of my hopes for 2020 is that I get excited about steem again. I would like to see old acquaintances come back. So many interesting things I miss about them. You know what? The fact that you are still holding on to this project says a lot about your character, especially those in first world countries who don't really need this. So many have left I can't even start to make mental notes. And probably it would have made for a more pleasant experience if I made connections with the few who are left but honestly, I am getting bored of the internet and clearly I need to start hanging out with people my age (just saying).
It might not end a sad story after all.
I think I will stop here for now. Enjoy the rest of your day.