Blogging for me is a mirror of my soul…a particular adage that goes similar to what I will convey…eyes is the mirror of our soul. Blogging is really a great hobby not only to fulfil one’s desire to write but along the course the feeling of fulfilment. I am not a good blogger…yeah…I must admit I am not born with a such a talent. I am nobody I supposed as I have introduced myself to the community. I don’t know much about writing…I don’t even join the school paper during my early days…I don’t write for any newspaper or any magazine or tabloid…I just write for myself to express what I have in mind…nonetheless when the famous bubblews platform I tried to start even just a simple post and there I got the motivation aside from the payment I get from the site…my desire to write was fulfilled…(just a desire uh huh…)I am not a journalist or even a bit of those whales here in the platform…or just come to think of some good writer here I supposed my friend @iwrite - I call him friend not because we knew each other but I love his writings…Its just like a spear that can crack ones head…words used shows it came from a witty mind. I have a lot of friends there and hope I will also meet more friends here. ! 
A FLASHBACK TO MY FALL
I have not reach the top of my dreams…I am just a few step realizing my dreams when things fall because of many wrong decisions that I made…well not actually for the decision that I made but it’s the feeling over things that I have experienced. I was not able to made it…My sadness pull me down actually my depression over unworthy events pull me down. I have thought that life is not worthy to live and so I made the worst decision that I have that is forgetting my dreams and choose to just leave and continue a different endeavour which along the way brought a lot of trials that let me fall more even. An unwise decision I made that left me unwanted at the end. I have live a simple life…a lie that I never dream of, I just go with the wind just like the boat in the sea where I used to kill my time thinking things over…Yeah I fail, I fall in the course of my way to realizing my dreams…I wanted to be a lawyer before but because my father was salvaged when he is 38 by a mysterious killers that until now the mistery of his death is still untold. I heard someone told me its because of his profession as lawyer that he was killed…I was not able to realize my dreams being like him…Mama don’t want me to be a lawyer..and so instead I enrolled Commerce. I don’t want to be a businesswoman…I wanted to be a lawyer then in the course of mu frustration I write and express my feelings in writing and finally have journals of my emptiness that only me knew…eversince I am expressing myself to things who can never understand me…I talked with the pen and paper…hang up with the sunset by the sea or even just along the roadside where I can see the beautiful sunset…and there I can feel the calmness and peace of mind that I can never found elsewhere. I want buildings and malls too…of course everyone wants to unwind sometime with the industrialization humanity have created…everyone wants to shop to the malls and buy items in the supermarket for their basic needs or just wants in life…everyone wants to spend time sometime with the man made amusement center but my heart is more closer to nature..and maybe this is where I get my ideas to write as I look at the beautiful scenery infront of me whenever I go to places like them.
I have decided to continue my life through odd days…I have stop dreaming about becoming a lawyer and start embracing the life I have chosen…well is it really my choice? I suppose its not…I just wake up one day starting a family…well is it really a family that stays together forever…well soon you will know what happened as I will continue to write about me. Let’s just leave my flashback there and be back to my present life and with my new endeavour.
BACK TO REALITY
To continue….when days goes by, I enjoy what I am doing and finally I have told myself well I love to write…I love to blog…when bubblews finally closed I stop writing but then I have miss a lot that is why even offline I just write what is in my mind. Then luckily I have came across the wall of some friends I have met in bubblews and they have a picture holding a banner of steemit…That’s it…I have talk to the famous name in my post sir @iwrite and ask about steemit then he explain me some points which still absurd to me though I knew he explained well…sometimes that’s me…I pay much attention but I can’t understand…I only do when I am applying or hands on to what one is teaching me. so I get my laptop and start to sign up then wait for the approval. Close my laptop and continue to ask things about steemit…the next morning I check my email and I have a new inbox…yes it came from steemit saying my account is approved…I thought for sometime and said to myself.”That’s it no turning back…then started to tap my keyboard and oh…I have made my first post…then decided to post it. That was my first post with the title sunset…As new member I expect that no one will pay attention to my post…maybe it just goes by…When I checked that post I feel upset…it never gain..Well I never quit…Im just too busy most of the time because of household chores or when I went to the hospital as out patient…you heard it right It’s hospital…I spend more than a week just to visit the hospital as out patient. As a result I did not post for a week but promised myself to be active once I finish my business in the hospital. But the best thing of all I have started..I have heard someone saying “everyone is a winner the fact that we conquer the fear to start”. Well It’s true the hardest part of everything is to start…A little child will even cry during his first day in school, think so many times when a baby start to put his weight in his feet and start his first step, even the old ones don’t grab all opportunity that came his way for his fear to fail…yes so may things that prove to us why beginning is the hardest part of every endeavour.
One night I make a post about myself then as I remember I did not even introduce the real me in my first post. I decided to write something about…my aspirations, dreams and even failure. Yes in that post I have talk so much about my character of being a wanderer and feeling the urge to look for the broken pieces of myself that I can never found somewhere else…I must see look inside me…the flame of wisdom within. The urge to know what I ought to know…and the depression to know that I can never have the chance to know myself.
It was a post that change my fate here in steemit..I have wish to know about the talk of the community sir @surpassinggoogle….lately I am enjoying reading his blog and wish that someday I can write something worth for him to read…for him to vote. I don’t still have much idea about steemit but I have the feeling that it can develop my being. Maybe…no! not maybe..I am sure I can understand it soon..by the guidance of the whales here in the platform. Well of course from those that I follow like @bloghound, @iwrite, @Ipol AS and other writers out there.
I FELT HEAVEN
I felt something good to happen and I choose to post my blog and oh…is it real? The famous @surpassinggoogle just drop my post and vote….My God this is really amazing. And fulfilling, I can’t describe the feeling that with a big name just vote my creation. I am very happy and may I have get this chance to thank him..Sir thank you so much…You never knew what you just gave to me. you have given me the courage to go on my quest here in steemit and to adhere to the purpose of the policy…To dream big is not a crime I suppose because everyone wants to uplift his status and I am one of those who wants to step higher than just being a newbie…a tadpole seems…from being a small element of the community I want to step higher and even surpass what I have done before. Yes sir you motivated me and I knew that you don’t expect that you have wake my desire to excel in every thing that I make…I may not have born to be a blogger…I may not have the best grammar one must have to be known in the community or in any undertakings….yes because I am nobody but I knew that with the small gesture of dropping by created a tons of motivation within me. Thanks and I hope someday I can be successful too even just once. I have a lot of failures…yes myself is one big failure..My life is not even worthless…That is what I am thinking about me…so just for once let me do one good thing in my life…let me be successful even just for once.
THE WILL TO START BIG
Well The title connotes that I want to succeed…its just a will I don’t even know how to do it…how to start about it but I knew it never matter if I don’t know the way…I knew someone out there will lead me… I jst have to have the urge to start something worthwhile for me to succeed. I have started by making the first step though it was not a success I suppose but still the effort to start a something is to gain the will to realize our dreams. No one I believe started great…everyone just started from a humble beginning and just furnish what they have in life…every big figure in the society once started of not being a famous. They once was a nobody too but dream big to be somebody…to have the power, fame and honor they have now. I want to be like them in my little way…I may not be as famous as the idol of everyone @surpassinggoogle and so many whales in steemit who have proven their worth but I want to be just a step higher than what I am now…
MAY GOD GUIDE ME
I want to ask the divine power to lead me what to do.. to lead me to what I wanted to be…or to lead me to the path that he wanted me to be. I hope He will always guide each everyone to go through the divine plan for everyone. Aside from His divine guidance I hope I can develop the skills that I can use to realize my dream. This is my prayer for all of us here and all the people around the world for us to have the courage to go for our dreams…
Dear steemitians lets all dream to be successful here and pray that steemits to serve humanity forever.. lets all do our part to be a responsible blogger. To the whales…please guide us to be like you oreven not just like you but for us to be proud to every blogger that we are making a history too just like you…