The cards say: You are abundant – as in the Summer Tree bearing fruit – you have so much to give others that you can feed the whole forest - including the earth – with your fruit that you have to freely give. However, you have a secret- the cockroach – and that is that you are hiding your light under a basket – this is reiterated in the drawing as you will see – You have been loyal to the wrong people – people who were narcissistic and mean and manipulative – You are at a Crossroads in your life – in which you must return to who you truly were born to be – because this other way is not working.
Knowledge – you must discover knowledge of how to Love. What Love truly is – not this fake version of love that you grew up with – not to say that your family harmed you intentionally. They did the best they could with what little they had – they did provide food and shelter – but perhaps they were alcoholic – and therefore did not have the nurturing to help you develop yourself properly.
In addition to that Knowledge, you are also being challenged to learn what is going on in the world itself – because it will give you a base understanding of how this place – earth – is supposed to function. You will have to become loyal to God and Natural Law, rather than your parents way – if you are to flourish like the apple tree. Here’s a link to a video that will help get you started: 
This is a 3 part video on Natural Law – Spiritual Law. It is the natural way we are supposed to live and you will not see it mirrored in the world very much.
Many of us have these dark childhoods – and that is our path – to find our true selves under the weight of what we learned as children. It gives us empathy and understanding of others. Humanity lost it’s way a long time ago – and so instead of being born into the spiritual path we came here to walk – we are born into total ignorance and have to figure it out as we go – many people never seek to find anything more than the surface stuff, but we are in a time now where most people will be forced to choose freedom or slavery – Slavery to old ideas or Freedom to Love as we are truly meant to love. Distracting oneself is part of how we keep ourselves enslaved.
The Drawing is an Angel/God holding you,, in His arms. There is a butterfly behind it’s head. There is a shadow figure of a man behind the butterfuly to the right. There is a walrus at the Angel’s left arm, and to your left, indicating your true Intuitive Nature. There is a fish swimming toward the walrus. You are in a heart-shaped bunting. There is a snake at your right ear. The Sun is behind the whole scene.
The walrus has his back to us, nearly. It has turned away so we can only see his left side. His tail is in the water causing concentric ripples through the entire bottom of the drawing - and is a reflection of the Angel’s Halo.
Walrus people are gentle giants. They always take care of others and make them feel good. Like the apple tree in the cards. The walrus is a calm animal which rarely attacks other people or animals unless it’s territory is threatened. Their tusks appear threatening as does their large bulk, however they can’t really do much with their tusks except open muscle shells. Sure they can strike with their tusks when provoked but it is not that easy for them to do. Walrus people make other people happy- people who have a walrus person in their life feel rich, as a result of having this person in their life.
You are a walrus person, but by being overly compliant to wrong thinking, you have gotten so far away from your true nature that you are lost, which is why the walrus is turned away from you. Really the only personality flaw of the walrus person is that they are compliant and they can lose themselves in their that.
This means they do what other people to whom they are loyal, want. If those people are not worthy of loyalty, then you are complying with a manipulative narcissist – your dad – the shadow man in the background – then you got confused because no matter how you tried to love him, it failed.
You are safe in the Angel’s arms, however, so you really are safe to be yourself. You must transfer your compliance from your earthly father to The Creator, The Father of Light, if you are to thrive. I am not suggesting, necessarily, a religious idea of God – I am talking about your OWN conception of God – perhaps it is Nature… If you just would put your faith and loyalty in God instead of people, who are fallible and who have small, self-seeking agendas – then you could be yourself - if you are yourself, your life will become a lot easier. You must BE yourself in order to be able to access everything you need to live here on Earth.
This is the Shadow Work that the snake is whispering in your right ear that you have to do – it’s not just as easy as me telling you to do this – and then you just do it – it will require some effort. The world itself is not going to show you how to do it, either – you are going to have to seek it, through prayer and meditation, and chance meetings with others – through relying on your intuition and trial and error.
By being true to yourself, through God’s Care and Protection, you have access to Unlimited Power and Direction. So, I invite you to embrace your Walrus nature. I invite you to love and be loyal to people through God – through the Creator in the non-religious sense. Ask Him to stand between you and your care for others, and then you will be free.
The fish represents your Higher Self – it is like the “Christian Fish” - which is simply the center of the Vesica Piscis, which is the base architecture of Sacred Geometry – the base architecture of all things on Earth – the Platonic Solids for example, are all made from the circles stuck together, in sacred geometry and the Fish comes out of that-
So let’s translate that to mean that your basic Self is swimming back toward who you really are and were born to be – Loving, Kind, Helpful, Happy – Love them through the Principles of the Creator – Natural Law – The Golden Rule – Do Unto Others As You Would Have Others Do Unto You. And if they are not treating you badly – you step back from them – this, as I said, requires work.
The world deserves to have access to you – not to have your inner fire squelched by jealous and small-minded people.
The butterfly above the Angel’s head which is touching the snake suggests that once you have done this Shadow Work, you will be transformed into the person you were meant to be – the butterfly had to go through being a caterpillar and then building a cocoon and chewing it’s way out of the cocoon in order to fly – that’s what you are going to have to do –
The cards say you are at a crossroads in your life – I asked – What is the Crossroads and I got Spiritual Burden - I would say that the Spiritual Burden is that you have been hiding your true self – you are trying to be someone that you are not and it is making you very unhappy and lost and depressed.
I asked What is the secret – and I got Mother Earth – so I asked – what is the same about Mother Earth and the Walrus?
Just as the apple tree freely gives to the earth it’s fruit – to nourish the soil which is also a living being and contains zillions of living beings -
Mother Earth gives freely. She lets us do whatever we want to her. As Above So Below – however – another Law no one realizes – if we harm the earth, the sky reflects what we do back to us, but there is a delay here on earth so we don’t see that the harm we are causing is actually doing anything and then we get hit with an electric storm from the Sun and we don’t know why -
Same is true with you – You give freely on your own will power – you send out love – and your childhood training – attracts the same people to you grew up with – and then you get slapped in the face over and over – because the Universe is trying to tell you that you have work to do – healing must be done -
iMother Earth s compliant. She allows humans to do whatever we do to her and she lets us. But more and more she loses her true self because we take more and more from her and make her what we want instead of asking her what She wants. You are like that - You and the earth have a lot in common that way – and you just take abuse, just like she does. You just let people walk all over you and throw their garbage on you. And your unhealthy loyalty allows that.
You are at this crossroads where you are going to have to stop acting like this because your Spirit cannot take it anymore. It is crying out.
That time has to end NOW. You are being called to be the other side of your nature – the Loving side. You are safe to do this as long as you lean on God.
But you might have to do some spiritual work to get back to it –
I am going to suggest you start with Meditation and Prayer – you need to get quiet and let your true Nature fill you back up.
Direction for Meditation and Prayer
The solution is that you let God be the Director of your life, then things will go much better for you, because you will always know what to do when you have to ask yourself who to be loyal to because you can ask God who to be loyal to and then follow your GUT feeling rather than your emotional feeling – you can be loyal to God and then you won’t lose yourself ever again because God MADE YOU YOU – so if you are loyal to God through following Natural Law Principles - then you can go inside when you feel yourself complying beyond what is right for you – you turning yourself inside out for people – and instead – you can go find some people who want you to SHINE on them with your bottomless CARE and LOVE… If you choose to make God the Director of your life then you will always be guided by a Power greater than you that has your best interest in mind
for the Highest Good of all concerned.
A good place to start would be MEDITATION and PRAYER. Start with a few minutes of silent meditation in the morning and at night - and increase it as you can. You can count backward from 25 and try to see the numbers in your head- this will block other thoughts from coming in. The purpose
of meditation is to get out of the ego self and into the observer self so that you are no longer attached to ideas that you believe are real… and you can get into the silence - this does take practice. Yoga can
help with this as well. Breathing into your stuck points in your body while doing a stretch can help you find mental silence.
Prayer on the other hand is for throughout the day - and it requires practice to become a working part of your life - Asking at each point when you set out to do something - what is God's Will in this situation?
Pausing and waiting and then looking for the answer in signs or intuition, chance meetings or things that come from outside you to start with ... You can do this with minutia as well as big decisions. Practice at the grocery store when standing in front of the bread isle – there are so many choices - God, what kind of bread should I buy? and then pause and wait to see which bread seems right. It takes practice. The finite mind is not going to want to give up it's status as the ruler - so it might be confusing and frustrating but the more you practice the more it will become a working part of the mind...
Even making mistakes shows you are trying and you will get great rewards from that -
Acknowledging these miracles - by writing them down - makes them more and more believable - not something to be brushed off as "coincidence" - or not even noticed -
In addition, during this "crisis" we are in - you could Pray for a simple way you could be helpful to others - and for the ability to let go of the results - you do not know what is best for others - but you
can be helpful to them in some way -
This will get you out of yourself and let the Higher Power have a chance to work out the right decision for you - so that you will know what to do when you need to know it...
What is the Knowledge? Knowledge of What? - Love
So you have to gain Knowledge of What LOVE actually is, versus lust or manipulation or coercion… I am going to put in some great writings on what real love looks like – and it should be a 2-way street, it should not just be you doing the sacrificing – the other person or people should also behave this way and if they do not then you know they are not worthy of your love. Sometimes we have to love people by letting them go because by continuing to be there and take their abuse, we are standing in the way of their spiritual growth.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
Shakespeare
SONNET 116
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no; it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests, and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
I am going to suggest a positive statement of intention for you might be
“I love people through God, who venerates me.” USE IT!!!