I know everyone of you have experienced already being deeply hurt by someone you truly love at some point in your life. Like some of you guys, I've gone through a lot in the past. I felt betrayed, got cheated on for couple of times, and was abused emotionally & physically. The latter one was the recent and the ultimate painful experience I ever had in my life. I'd say it was indeed an "all-in-one package deal" kind of hurt that I had to carry on in just closed to two-year relationship. It may seem a short span of time to be in a relationship, but it felt like an equivalent of several years that I had to deal with each day being with this man.
Yeah, I know, the first thing that came in your mind was why the damn I still stuck with him. Lol. Well, to give you some reasons, it's because I was pregnant at that time and thought of giving him the benefit of the doubt that he'd change as soon as I give birth to our son. And if this relationship wouldn't work out, it's going to be the second time around that my child doesn't have a father. That, I didn't want to happen. Besides, my eldest daughter was studying and I didn't want it to be affected if I ever I make a move for us to disappear from this person, who I used to think was the right one meant for me.
So, for me to express myself somehow from what's going on with me and because I wasn't allowed to talk to anyone at all, I would always just listen to music such as this song, Blind. It's like a perfect song for me at that time so I played it over and over again, dwelling on the pain I was feeling inside. I would just fall asleep each night, hoping for tomorrow that things will be back from what it used to be. However, this person never had seen my worth and my love for him.
Thankfully, I got saved by God's grace because of only one prayer, then the rest was history. It was hard to let go, but it was all worth it and it was the best thing that I could ever do - to let go of a toxic relationship. New doors had opened for me - a new and better opportunities, friendship, reconciliation with my family, and a new love had entered in my life again. God has allowed those life ordeals so that after learning my lesson the hard way, I'd be able to fully embrace all the blessings in store for me. I didn't expect that I would still have so much love to give despite of what happened in the past. I won't be able to do this if He didn't love me first. He does love everyone of us, no matter how sinful you have lived your life or not.
"So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:The old has gone, the new is here!" - 2 Corinthians 5:16-17
It's okay to remember the past so you'd be reminded of how you stood up and held by God. With that, you'd be overwhelmed of His love each time and you'd be able to love the people around you more.
So today, I would like to share with you my cover of Blind by Lifehouse and the second video is them to justify the song hehe:
I hope you enjoyed this post. I'd love to hear your stories as well. :)
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