Okay, originally this was supposed to be a video. It was going to be my grand introduction to the world of becoming a video Ulogger.
I have already made 4 videos before. Three were for a contest where I spoke about why I wanted to get into to Sndbox, another video showing me eating Samgyeopsal (Korean BBQ) and then of course supporting @surpassinggoogle (Our Boy Terry) when he called for people to try saying Ulog without the U sound.
The last video was just a spur of the moment thing that I did when I was asked to do a cheers video. If you are interested to see my awkwardness then you get check it hahahaha.
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What is Cheers in your language?
So the other day I was in the SteemTopia discord server because @littlescribe has this show with @coruscate on reading some awesome Steem Monster stories.
I am addicted to the lore of Steem Monsters and so I join those writing competitions and also go to these kinds of shows. I think it is really wonderful what Steem Monsters is doing by attracting a different kind of investor of Steem, one that buys Steem in order to buy the cards hoping that their value will increase.
So anyway after the reading they were talking and one of the things that were brought up was their tips and tricks on how they became successful vloggers in Dtube and Dlive.
One of @coruscate's suggestion was to talk in front of a mirror while delivering your topic. I was thinking okay I can do that! So I listed down some of the topics I wanted to talk about. Some musings on my end and looking at the mirror made me conscious of several things.
I don't like looking at myself. This is also apparent in all my videos as I hardly look at the camera. @dynamicgreentk pointed this out to me on my ulog video and I know how self-conscious I am.
Coming from a childhood of being bullied because of my dyslexia really made me feel socially awkward and often retreat when people talk. I could express my thoughts better writing. So often I can be quite chatty online but when I talk I feel so nervous.
I thought that I got over this when I started to co-host a show in the Promo-mentors and at times moderate and talk in the Discord show of Terry (Unofficially I call it Talk with Terry Show]. It happens every Sunday 12:00 AM Manila Time/ Saturday 16:00 GMT 0 Time Zone in the Steemgigs Discord channel
Yet being in video showed me that I still lack the confidence to pull it off. I remember the words of Terry whenever someone says he/she is nervous to shake the room. Shake the fears away and just be you. Flaws are accepted.
How I wish I can transfer that advice into reality because as of now I have deleted over 20 videos of outakes and mistakes. Flaws are accepted Yet I am finding it hard to accept it and one bad trait I have is being too hard on myself. I am my own worst critic. Oh! and I also self-depreciate a lot.
I am messed up.
So I don't think I am ready but everyday I will try to shoot a video of me talking and hopefully I will have one day that I would be satisfied and share it to the world.
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