Bro I can feel you! You're struggling. Despite it may be different situations, most parents tend to hope that their kids are able to wear that graduation robes and square mortarboard, proudly holding the degree certificate paper one day. My mum did the same thing to me when I told her that I wanted to enroll in Multimedia Interactive Design instead of Engineering course. They just wouldn't get it.
I am not asking you to quit studying. Afterall I still enjoyed my 4 years boring study life. Remember what you told me? "you learn, you earn!" There's value you may not see it now but you may treasure it in the future. One thing though, if you really failed terribly in your first year exam, you better quit than crying a river!
Since you've decided to take the path, just walk the hell out of it! It's gonna be bloody tons of assignments, endless quiz and tests, many sleepless nights, your job and side-hustles commitment and still counting. No one ever said it's easy but as you titled this post, turn your fear into passion :)
RE: Face your fears bravely.