/*** Incoming BattleHippie Transmission ***/
Priority: URGENT
To: Agent GringaTsarina
From: Agent ShepherdSpook
Time: 0930 ParaTime
Date: 26/11/18
Timeline: 0102
Location: DojoAcapulco
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My Beloved GringaTsarina,
As I sit here high on Fiesta Mountain, overlooking the paradise I longed to share with you, I now realize why the relationship we shared degraded so quickly. I remember the lessons in attachment I neglected to follow. What has transpired is my fault and I blame only myself for driving you away.
Well, myself and the fat lazy piece of garbage that drove a wedge between us in his quest for butthurt revenge. Him and his filthy delusional hippie friend who thinks he has what it takes to challenge me. I am giving myself a few days to calm down but I do not think I am not finished with those heathen scumbags. They have not experienced the kind of pain that I can rain down on their world. I may get to find out if the "peaceful anarchist" brand @$$hole comes with a twist off cap... Still pretty f*cking pissed about that one.
I only wish you could enjoy the thrill of this hunt with me my goddess of righteous violence.
I was near my end in the late stages of alcoholism and had been wallowing in self-pity when you came into my life. I stopped drinking because of the hurtful things I said to you. Horrendous words that I had no recollection of speaking. The guilt of speaking so vulgarly to such a beautiful creature gave pained me deeply. I begged for your forgiveness and explained my many disorders and we soon began to talk. I began to see that you were not only incredibly beautiful but passionate, intelligent, compassionate, strong, and wild. Your inner savage rivaled even my own, you turned me on more than most. I forgot there were other girls for a while.
The more we spoke the more I saw the inner turmoil that consumed you. I came to care about you deeply and wanted to help. In your suffering, I saw much of the pain that plagued me in my youth. You have experienced a darkness that most do not see even in war, yet you remained strong for those you care about. Your strength impressed me as much as your beauty mesmerized me. You did not deserve to be put through such incredible agony and I looked past my own with hopes of assisting you.
After hearing you cry, I prayed to whatever deity was listening to steal your pain and put it on me. After your talk of suicide, I would lay awake at night thinking of you and wondering how you were. I would have done anything to save you from the demons that tormented you. You had not committed the great evils I have in life yet you were paying a price much higher.
I tried to exile myself to the friend-zone in order to help you, without the feelz causing complications. You would not have this and you soon found your way deep into my heart, like an arrow finds missionary's. You asked me to trust and love you so I did. I fell hard. I had never felt so strongly for a woman I had not even met in person. I was both consumed and frightened. I soon forgot about working on myself and spent most days seeking answers to your troubles. Wondering if you were okay. Frightened to my core that you had hurt yourself.
You became my blossom of light in the field of darkness that was my life.
For a brief period, we were happy. We made plans for you to come to paradise so we could find bliss. We talked of cuddling into the late afternoon. We would laugh and talk of the mischief we would pull together. Talked of slaying demons together. For the first time in my life, I had considered settling down. I will not go into detail of the naughtier things we discussed. I rarely heard you in tears and your laughter brightened my world. I had felt an excitement I had not known in decades. This was not meant to last...
The scumbag, angry that I sided with his ex-wife in his divorce, dug up into my past and bore false testimony about me. With the aid of another I once called friend, who can't let go of imaginary slights from years ago, he made you question who I was and my intentions. Made you fear to let me love you. Caused you to confuse and anger me.
You didn't tell me the full story so I knew not the severity of the lies he was telling you. Your progress in finding peace began to unravel. You began to do things that I did not understand. Things that reminded me of the insanity of abusive women of my past.
I reacted by pushing you away because I did not understand why you were acting the way you were. Now that the truth of the situation is revealed, I know you were justified in questioning me and researching my actions. I should have been more patient with you. I will regret my weakness until the day I leave this world.
Although I am deeply pained and long to feel your warm embrace, I have come to see things clearly. I may never be the man to give you the unconditional love that you deserve but I have helped put you on the path that will lead you to it.
Instead of acting like a depressed pathetic teenage girl, like I have been for the last month or so, I will just be happy for you as you are again on the road to finding peace. You no longer sound suicidal or in constant emotional pain. You are getting your medical issues under control and even sounded healthier on the phone. You have left that sh*thole city in the dark empire and are set to explore the world and find adventure. You seem to be letting go of past traumas and excited for a brighter future. This now warms my heart and makes me smile.
You will always be my beautiful Slavic warrior, as you have renewed my strength to continue on my mission. I now have the desire to live and grow instead of dying young, depressed and angry at the world. I thank you for coming into my world and lighting the way out of the darkness.
I will always love and care about you. If you ever need me I know you can find me. We both know You are a secret squirrel type personality anyway.
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I will always think of you in a positive light and not "talk sh*t". I will hold on to the good memories we shared as those good memories saved my life. I will hold the vision of you living a happy life with a beautiful family in my mind. You deserve nothing less than the best and I will pray to Odin that you find better.
May you always crush your enemies and see them driven before you.
Until we meet again, in this life or the next...
Forever with love and compassion,
ShepherdSpook
That is all, carry on...
☮❤Ⓐ
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