Today I just discovered that I had lost the support of one of my biggest supporters on the hive Blockchain. At first, I was really worried but I sort of shook the feeling away, surprisingly.
Normally, I would be quite anxious knowing that most of my plans and projection have been delayed by another 12 months due to this setback, but I am oddly calm.
I have always known that nothing is permanent and I cannot count on the benevolence of people forever. Things change, people change, policies change. I really cannot control any of that. All I have control over are my actions and how I move forward from here.
Like I will always say, I appreciate everyone who supports this page. You know, I really don't expect much from anyone. If everything should stop at this I will have no regrets (well I will still appreciate the comments though).
Late this evening my friend and I were joking about this phrase from the Bible that goes along these lines: "there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth." It is a phrase in the Bible that describes the agony of hell.
However, we found the phrase awkwardly funny. I don't know, but the thought of people gnashing their teeth made me laugh (that sounds dark). I should be spooked but I am not. Hell did not seem so dreadful this evening.
We made a couple of jokes about 'gnashing of teeth.' I even threatened to nickname my friend 'gnashing of teeth.' sounds stupid but funny. Of course, he protested. No one wants to be associated with suffering.
The high point for me was the odd associate of suffering and laughter (I tried to depict that with the post’s title and image). I never thought the idea of hell would ever bring joy to anyone but it did this evening. This is just another reminder about how our attitude or perception of things defines certain situations.
I could have thrown a tantrum this evening and called out people for doing what was deemed best for their investment/stake/platform (which is silly). Rather, I thought in terms of solutions: How do I move on from here?
I certainly do not have the answer now but I will keep doing what I know how to do best, which is to share my truth and that has somehow brought good things my way.
Also, sometimes the things that cause you the greatest pain take you to the next phase of your life. Growth can be painful but also necessary. Maybe this is just another difficult situation that would plunge into greater heights.
There might be weeping and gnashing of teeth, but joy comes in the morning...