Since November of last year, I have had some frequent problems in my personal life. Since then, some weeks have been smooth, but others have been difficult, and it seems that the easy some weeks were, the heavier the difficulties were in the following weeks. The pendulum of my private universe barely steadied, and that left me with little peace and focus.
Of course, I'm not blaming external forces, don't get me wrong; I'm mature enough to know that most of the things that happen to me are my direct or indirect choices. Although my beliefs and superstitions don't completely let go of me and I believe I've been going through all of this for a greater purpose that I still don't understand.
As if that wasn't enough, here at Hive I also need to produce content daily to have some minimal financial return, but I also didn't have enough mental and emotional strength to keep myself constantly when I went through such difficult times. In fact, you have no idea the effort I'm making right now to type each word of these... This may definitely seem silly and dramatic for you who are in good mental health, but for me, writing this post is being a job of Hercules.
Today I made the decision to act no matter how much it bothered me. And I've come to the conclusion that the only way to continue being productive when adverse situations are happening is to simply keep acting, even in pain. One step at a time, one brick after another, and all those other clichés we know, are functional when it comes to a moment like this: you should just keep going. Keep going in the direction you want to go, keep doing what you need, as much as every cell in your body just wants to spend the day eating, drinking and watching.
Not letting your personal issues get in the way of your productivity is a decision you should make all the time. And it's just easy for me to state that in the third person, as if I'm saying it to someone other than me, but, IT'S A DECISION I HAVE TO MAKE ALL THE TIME.
Where am I going with this? I just want to have a quiet life, without money being a big concern. I just want to have the feeling that I can achieve my goals regardless of what happens. I know it won't be easy, but today I decided that I will go on and on, no matter what.
Since everything started to 'fall apart' I lost focus on my productivity. My work in real life is complicated because I'm self-employed, I need to find more clients to make more money, but I just can't move in that direction.
