[This article was written on the day of my arrival in Germany, but I published it the next day. I'm sorry if some of the timing seems a bit weird, but you'll understand why once you read the article.]
Do you know that meme with the guy sending a selfie to someone from the hospital saying "I lived bitch"? That's pretty much how I feel now, after 24 hours on the road and two days of almost no sleep.
Yes, you heard right - 24 hours on the road and two days without sleep. You might ask yourself "well, if you were on the road for 24 hours then why the hell did you not sleep for 48?"
Well, because I'm me and because before any major event, such as going to Germany for the next 7 months to work with people who speak a language that I don't currently understand, I can't sleep. I just can't - I lay in bed for 5 to 6 hours or more without falling a sleep at all. And then I can't sleep on the road either, if I go by car, because I cannot keep my eyes closed for more than a few minutes at a time without opening them up after each shake of the car.
Truth be told, I did get a bit of sleep. I have been informed by my girlfriend that during certain parts of the road, when I was extremely tired, I "blacked out", meaning I fell asleep for what it felt like 2 minutes to me (I literally felt like I closed my eyes for a bit, almost fell asleep and then immediately woke up), but at times it was literally 20 - 30 minutes, something that I do not remember at all.
Regardless of all that, I arrived to my destination safely, although sleep deprived, which means tired as hell. I said hello to the people here, then ate a bit of pizza and cake (very healthy food, as you can imagine) and then took a nap of one hour and a half, which felt as if I went to heaven but I was then pulled back to where I actually belonged.
I woke up not too long ago because I needed to write an article, and so with great difficulty I said my goodbyes to sleep for a few more hours and I began writing this, without any clear idea of what exactly I wanted to talk about. I guess I just wanted to recall the latest events and talk a bit about them.
Maybe I am an workaholic as my girlfriend keeps calling me. I just couldn't sleep well knowing that there will be no articles being posted today and so I had to make an extra effort and write something, anything at all.
Anyway, now that I am here and the worst part is over, it means that I should be able to continue doing what I do, right? Wrong. This is where inconsistency might become a very present part of my life.
I'll have very little time at my disposal to do anything but work at my job, and when I do get that free time I'll probably be extremely tired and either unable to write or simply not in a good enough mood. Every time I'll get one of my breaks I'll want to spend at least 1 hour taking a nap before going back to work, and every night after finishing work I'll be too tired to properly think about writing and posting.
I will try my best however to do everything. Writing will give me an extra level of sanity while here, and an extra source of income that I can't abandon just because I am busier and more tired than usual.
Now that my financial situation is better than at the beginning of last year, and since I finished helping my parents pay off some of their debt, my next goal is helping them finish a few things that are wrong with their house, and then save some money to buy a place and move on my own.
After that will come the need to get more sources of income going up until the point where I can stay home and receive money from different places without having to leave the country any more.
That's quite a few goals, and it might be complicated to achieve them at times, but it's something to aim for. It will require extra work for me, which is why I'm writing this article despite the fact that I can barely keep my eyes open and that the only things I want are to take a shower and then go sleep for at least 10 hours.
Anyway, I just wanted to give you an update and let you know what you can expect from me in the future. I'll write and post as often as I can, but I cannot promise that I'll be as consistent as I was these past few months.