I have no plans or anything to do today except to maybe sleep if the sleep fairy would visit me. I had a nice sleep last night although it was just an intermittent sleep pattern but nonetheless I am so thankful because there are a lot of years that I suffered insomnia and I never really had that normal sleep pattern after until now.
It has been raining all night and I am also thankful that it was just a drizzle and not heavy. The last heavy rain that we had it made the room beside mine flooded with rainwater. It seems that the water table had been adjusted by nature to be higher now because the flooring of that room was once the flooring of our terrace which is higher than the road before and now the road had been made higher so now that part of our house gets flooded now.
Anyway Bitcoin as it seems is holding its price. Maybe this is not a pump and dump afterall but who knows? maybe I am wrong. The cryptocurrency market is really unpredictable for the short to medium term perspective for for a long-term perspective BTC still for my opinion is one of the best investment instrument that we can venture on because of its ever-lowering supply and thus the price will appreciate in the predicted and forecasted levels.
It is quite a boring life that I have and it is just blogging and cryptocurrency that makes my existence interesting for me. If not for these two maybe I will be the saddest person ever because of course I could not do anything anymore, I could not do my former hobbies, visit friends face to face, spend good and memorable times with my relatives and family.
Now my nieces and nephews are growing older without much of me in their lives and it frustrates me because it is beyond my control because of my unfortunate situation and disposition in life.
Being disabled in later part of life is like a curse. I imagine just being normal and then all will be taken from you and then live a life so ridiculously hard that it seems like a joke if you think about it. Not only I am having a misery with my body bit also it is expensive to maintain it and if you lose your grip you will surely be subjected into another level of misery to lingering death.
That is my life, basically a living hell is one of the fitting term for it. I do not know why I am kept on living. I hate my body for not giving-up as it just keeps on going and going like an energizer battery as seen in the commercials and it sucks that way because if I kept on living like this it is like getting tortured everyday indeed.
SO I just want people to give me encouragement all the time, people who would love me because I needed it as I am like a naked person in the middle of the jungle, so much to worry about anything and I never felt much alone in my life than now and now that my parents are aging I really do not want to outlive them. I do not think things will ever be the same because a parent's love cannot be equaled and i am deeply frightened if I would ever to lose that.