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By re-integration I mean something other than subordination.
Let's say one of the qualities you consider to be lacking is discipline. If you imagine it as a written word on a thick stone that is very heavy and solid, and it is also tied to your leg. How do you want to conquer this stone? You cannot carry it around with you all the time, nor can you run away from it because it is tied to your leg. So what can you do so that the stone called "indiscipline" is no more? If you want to smash it, you'll see how you hurt yourself. You beat your indiscipline to kill it. Then again, you turn away and you want to ignore it.
Can you turn that stone into something that you can reintegrate? For example, the stone and its chain will become a glass of water that you drink. You are integrating a thing that fits naturally into your organism.
So the question would be: Do you only feel great when you have subordinated yourself to something, defeated it and it took a lot of effort? But where is the experience where you did not have to force yourself to discipline? What exceptions to the rule serve as a signpost for you to realize that you may be quite good at getting things done at the last minute, and that you can see in it a strength rather than a weakness?
The daily practice ... is probably to consciously experience all thoughts you have about yourself (and others). Wherever a judgment threatens to manifest itself, check whether it is even necessary to judge. ... For me personally it helps to listen to Buddhist lectures, reading. To see the daily stories I experience in the light of their potentials, which cause me less sorrow and worry than they do when I exclude these potentials.
The practice of finding my humor within daily situations I otherwise would have considered bad or difficult. Starting with the more easy things.
RE: Stop Running.