Apart from all the implications of an expanded sensory awareness and my experiences with the psychedelic tribe there were other things that didn't jive with me in the zeitgeist movement, things that affected my life deeply but that I couldn't quite make conscious until years later. It took a while to see these effects on me, through distance and a life outside of my tzm activism.
You know, at the time I felt somewhat high and mighty, knowing about stuff most people didn't know about, like the mechanisms in the debt-based monetary system that govern our lives but leave most people completely unaware. I felt like part of a secret club of initiates, seeing the world with different eyes than most going about their dreaded daily routines.
But all these bits of knowledge about the matrix mechanisms didn't make it easy to participate like everyone else. On the contrary: knowing that your job ultimately helps out an evil corrupt system is heartbreaking and makes it even harder than it already is to most.
Knoing about the monetary system really makes anyyone with an income, anyone who claims that "this is simply how it is" an accomplice of sorts. A culprit. Supporting evil by simply going along with it. Or that's how I kinda saw it back then, and to a degree that is true but it really isn't quite that simple as I used to think it is.
The revoluzzer in me was appaled.
So I did my utmost to drop out of the system and spend as little as I could, generating as little demand as possible for new frivolous things. All my time in tzm also sealed the deal for me in terms of never wanting to visit a university - too much indoctrination too little knowledge taught. I still see it the same way today, and it made me a self-taught individual, but it also lowered the appeal of all "classical" institutions for me.
And though I still see many of these things similarly today, I do have to say that my revolution tendencies and my knowledge from tzm became a giant hurdle to me in many way.
It stopped me from becoming a young entrepreneur because there was this lingering sensation that I would simply become that cog in the machine I hated, working to make money inside an evil framework agaist my better judgment - money that is ultimately tainted and part of the enslavement system.
My parents kept telling me at the time: "Yes, but this is simply how it is today. Until that world you are talking about comes about you have to go along with this in some fashion."
And though they were right of course, I didn't really see it that way. I was stubborn and just refused.
I didn't want to throw myself into a big company, to climb the career ladder... that was all beyond me now, and well it would have almost stopped me entirely. Started several donation-based youtube projects that never really generated any monetary compensation - and I didn't want to put ads on my vids either. Because all of that would feed the machine I was so desperately trying to avoid feeding.
Started to live with a dear friend and we went dumpter diving twice a week, living like kings without any monetary expense ahaha. It's funny how the universe made that possible with all my "we don't need this system" attitudes back then - it played right into my hands ahaha.
In the end I felt like any mere idea of realizing a business oriented venture was doomed to fail because I felt it would support a system I did not want to support.
So crypto came just at the right time for me, its promise showing signs of resilience against the machine, even if it should turn out that cryptocurrency is a trap laid out by the very same system.
Over the years I realized that we have to work with what we have.
There is no point chasing an ideal if you can't feed yourself or if you are constantly holding yourself back from excelling. And so I felt after years of it that something had to change and it did. Started blogging, started a new full time 9-9 job ;) and started saving up - ultimately for a grand journey in a van.
You know, in tzm in 2011 I always figured it would be "mere years now" until the monetary system disappears, and here we are in 2021 still living with the same fiat. So glad I started seeing reality and made a u-turn.
Ever since quitting tzm I have learnt many new aspects of the monetary system, most of which are quite hidden and completely different than discussed in most truther circles. I realized that even in tzm I had barked up the wrong tree entirely. That banks really do not create money out of thin air, nor that we are involuntary slaves to such a system. But that we have greatly overlooked things - we have not read the fineprint laying it all out.
And so, living life on the road today I am forever grateful that I could broaden my horizons again and leave the confines of a worldview, an ideology, that kept my mind prisoner for the right reasons but the wrong ends.
Until we have outgrown a monetary system living in the complete anti-attitude against this basis of our societal life today is not healthy. Rather than freeing my mind it got me stuck in perpetual resistance to what is. Ultimately making me unable to change anything about myself and thus this world.
Why I Left the Zeitgeist Movement - Prologue
Pt.1 - The Psychedelics Conspiracy in Academia
Pt.2 - Humanity at its Best!
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