shoutout to @zerokun @qurator @brumest @ewkaw scrooge and a guy from 5 months ago whose account I can't remember.
It is a 4:47am fucked up rant where I'm crying over my pitiful mentally unstable self in the hopes that getting this out of my system will somehow make me feel a little less dead inside.
I have asperger's syndrome. It's somewhat like autism. You can watch netflix's atypical series to get a glimpse of that. Except their protagonist is a lucky son of a bitch compared to my reality.
So yeah I have a psychiatric condition. I'm 30 years old and I could never get a job. I live with my wife yet we live with my mother whom, by the way, is the person I hate the most of'em all.
This brings me, a mentally ill person who knows a little bit of what's being depressingly ill, to tell you, @brumest, that you're fucked up in the head. Fuck you. You went fucking psycho over the tiniest little shit. You went out of your way to intentially irritate me in that other post. While @ewkaw showed up just to tease me some more as if that whole shit didn't mess with my head enough as it was. Fuck you. I hope you die, fuck you. You bring me hatred into my heart.
AND I'M REALLY TRYING HERE! I'm doing the best I can to get enough money to have SOME financial independence. You think I spend 16 fucking hours a day on steemit just because I love it? Yeah I love it, but I barely do anything else other than thinking about what I should post next and how I'm gonna pay the $100 credit card bill that got up to that number because my cat is eating more food than usual since he's always sad since I don't pay attention to him because I'm always fucking working or playing some game to escape from all the stress.
You know what else I do? I get on faucet sites who give me like 0.05 usd total for every 20 times I enter each of them. I do this the whole fucking day so I can send that to my steemit wallet. I do this 25 times a day, so I can at least withdraw daily.
My life is a piece of shit and I hate it. The other I met @zerokun whom I decided to help a bit and got him into steemit and taught him some stuff and every now and then I asked him for an equivalent trade on steemit and even made some offers which were good for him yet he still turned me down. I got really angry because I was helping him since he told me his life wasn't very good - or maybe I imagined he told me - and cussed at him. He replied with "don't kill yourself soon :)".
And then I host these brawlhalla tournaments for fun on my discord where I wanted to give prizes to the winneres and half the ntrants make fun of me. Every time. I gave up on it yesterday after I got mocked once again.
So unfortunately, from the depths of my heart, I hope you all die. Preferbly before I eventually kill myself. Fuck you. Including you, @scrooger, who threated to flag me if I wanted to go public with the shit you guys made me go through.
Did you know I've been crying during the whole time I read this text? Pathetic, isn't it? I AGREE AND I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL. FUCKTARDS. I HATE YOU. my heart hurts :(
edit: writing this helped a bit
ps: I also have a truckload of physical issues and even some serious hygene problems. I'm extremely thankful to my wife for not leaving me. anyone else would have.