bethsjourney

![3F443A55-F41F-42A9-A498-666E74AA8DE8.jpeg]( My own pictures. Totally love this beautiful amazing little person. And miss her so much, she is still very much alive, she lives with my mum. Since I spoke

This is my friends dog, just love watching little lilly watching the tv. Really brightened my mood. Due to health reasons I don’t have my own pets. Sometimes I believe I was just ment to be alone in this

Today I am feeling so very low, In fact in all fairness I can say I don’t like me at all. The picture is mine, one that I took on a happier day and time. And this picture is one I have had to break the

I woke up with physical pain in my bones today, and a heavy heart. When I opened the curtains the sun was shining. It totally changed my mood. I started to think positive thoughts, and thanked god for

I am not a mother. I have always felt an injustice due to not being able to have my own children. I have been an auntie to many of my friends kids, and also my sisters boy for 21 years. On my nephews 21st

I woke up in a lot of pain today, and the sky is so gray. So I looked through my pictures and found these two of a road trip in the west of Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 It has put a smile on my face, and I

Why do we go back to a place we left? I don’t know, I just know I did. When my values always said never go back. I now know it was a mistake, and why I had never done it before. If it don’t work the first

I just can't shake this feeling of fear, fear of loving and a fear of being loved. This leads me to isolation as I just can't face people. I have not always had this kind of fear, my past fear was more

Yesterday I totally procrastinated; I tend to do this often. Why? I wish I knew. I guess I do know as every time I try to put my thoughts down on to paper my memories start jumping about all over the place.

Ain't it funny how our memories hold so much of us in chains. Removing the heavy shackles of the past can be harder for others. I have been in a constant battle with my past for as long as I can remember.

When you wake up still half asleep look at the clock, you have slept past your time and missed your appointment. There was a time in my life when I would have jumped out of bed straight in to the shower

/ I remember when people would say “I don’t like her she pure loves herself” as if it was a bad thing. You see when I was growing up no one ever told you that if you don’t love yourself you really can’t

I woke up in a hospital bed, well more like slowly started to gain consciousness. I could not move and my body felt as if it was made of lead. There where tubes coming out of me from my arms and tummy,

As the adults in my life sat in my mother’s house drinking, my uncle would tell everyone how he put my baby picture under his bed in Barlinnie (the local jail in Glasgow) to frighten the mice. Then he

Life was good. I was working and training as a chef in a job that I loved. I was being promoted. Life had suddenly become SO exciting because I was getting to move away from the place I’d always hated

Hi, I’m Beth, and I don’t write, I talk. I like to talk a lot. Too much, sometimes. My friend is a writer, maybe you’ve heard of him? @raymondspeaks? I’m always saying I’d love to write my life down. He