It took me a long while to think what to say to you. That feeling of entrapment is the worst, but you do have a right to speak up and say something if you don't like it. Being a victim of your own fear and following the rules, enabling the other person to make their own decision is not a way out. When you love someone you care about them and their feelings, but what about your feelings? And if you'll continue building up the unspoken it will burst at one point or another. Saying things with anger and opening a conversation are two different things. There is always a way to communicate. As for relatives, personally I speak what I think, respectfully but without consideration on their opinion. Heck my own grandma told me- don't get married if you don't want too:) I did fight for my freedom at one point and had to fight for respect, because in here respect for a human doesn't exactly exists, only for your doings, and now I'm just happy as I am, not perfect, with a ton of darkness and past, but happy. Take care and hope you'll find your own path:)
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