I stopped trying to figure him out a long time ago. I am looking for help!

I tell him I love him. He ignores what I say. Why does it hurt so much that I want him to stay. I’ve been emotional lately no one can tell. It hurts me how much I fell. Fell in a hole of depression. People

Here we go again except this time it's worse. This time I have a concussion on the top of my head. Somewhere near the partial bone. It's fun getting dizzy all the time. But it's better than being nauseous