After taking the dip in holy Ganga river and attended the morning rituals at temple, we felt hungry. Another best part of Varanasi is that one do not need to bother about the food as many food items were readilly available all the times. Especially, the street foods were simply amazing. There were variety of them, and one just choose the item as per choice. While we ordered dosas, my mind again shifted towards my Dad's demise. I was missing him deeply.
My nephew took these picture without my knowledge. I would have given some nice poses even if I was aware about it. But at tge moment of eating my mind was looking for my Dad. In the entire I was missing him and his absence is nailing me hard. The reason was his caring nature. He always used to ask about my whereabouts, whether I had my food or not or when I would be reaching home. He always used to enquire but this is my first trip, where no one was calling neither anyone is concerned about my well being.
This is not only one sided affair, I also used to show him the new places through video call and love to share other things. He had his concerns while I had my interest in sharing things with him. But this trip was my first solo trip of a kind. Many I times I took out my mobile to see if there is any miss call from my dad or not. Only to realize he is not anymore
It hurts his absence does made a huge impact in my life. I used to be free under his supervision but now I have to supervise everything of my own. Nobody take care of me anymore and I have to look after many things. Time has come to move a step ahead in life. Noone fill his absence, but it is important to keep his values and let his head high all the time. I am alone now, and it took me enough time to reduce, a new chapter begun, where all the character will be me itself. And I have to execute them nicely. miss you dad