Woah, that's bittersweet and heartwrenching life story, so sorry for the loss.
I dunno, but your username is a bit cryptic and I can't help but to relate it to your (traumatically) sad story, does it mean humor or happiness doesn not exist? Or am I thinking too much?
Anyway, hope you'll have a Humor0200 life, you deserve it! 👏🏼
RE: SADNESS - My English Language Teacher