My nature is to worry. And overthink.
Over the past couple years, adopting a pretty random meditation practice, I attempted to shed these personality traits.
Of course, we are who we are, but some things can be harmful and it is up to us to know when (if) we must change.
A friend of mine told me to be adaptable and flexible. Each time I would start to think 'what about this' or 'what if this happens instead', she would stop me and say 'you are adaptable and flexible'!
My meditation practice has gotten much more regular and I have made great strides in lowering my aggression. That is to say, I am not so quick to feel like throwing my hands in the air and assuming the universe is against me each time my food would burn or the dogs wouldn't listen to me to come inside.
I can sit in heavy traffic without the impression that getting upset about it would have any affect on it moving along faster.
About 6 months ago I started reading oracle cards for myself as well. A sort of extension of meditating for me. I like the results of meditation but I still have a hard time with the traditional form of it.
The cards gave me something to 'do' as I connected with spirit/universe/source/what have you.
To be clear, I like the tangible things. I like the notion of messages through things. For me it is an extra layer and an easier way for me to grasp the message.
And today is the 5th day of reading runes, for me.
Day 1 reminded me to look for signs and pay closer attention to what is actually going on in my life. Take note of the positives in frustrating situations.
Day 2 I pulled Uraz. It's basic meaning is 'strength'. Again, amidst all frustrating things going on and seemingly backwards motion where my work is concerned, I will be strong and keep going.
Day3 Ehwaz, 'movement'. Take that strength and keep moving!
Day 4 and day 5 (today) I actually pulled the same rune!
Laguz, 'flow'.
Now each day I simply ask, 'what do I need to focus on today?'
Again, as I work at going from unemployed to self-employed, there's an element of trust that I'm doing the right thing. I continue to flow and do what I feel is the right thing to move in that direction. If I'm getting the same rune two days in a row, I may be onto something. Or perhaps it is a way to tell me I got it wrong yesterday!
Obviously we all interpret things as we see them. I do believe if I'm getting it wrong, a new sign will present itself.
Maybe it all sounds woo woo and bonkers. But isn't it in my best interest to keep moving in a positive direction? Allowing the negatives to be there but know it is not for me to change or worry, but simply to deal and react in a less negative way?
So here I sit, with my divination tools to put me in a state of trusting my intuition and decisions. Might sound crazy to some but if my mind is at ease, then it's not crazy to me.
UPDATE:
All photos taken with my glorious iPhone 11;)
If you are interested in the runes I use, I have no information on them except where I purchased them, for about $13. It's a little shop here on Cape Cod, called Ritual