Sometimes, I sit back and just smile. Not because everything is perfect, but because I’ve finally accepted that things will never be perfect, and that’s completely fine.
I used to be one of those people that wanted life to follow a script. You know, finish school at a certain age, get a job straight after, then maybe marriage, then kids, the whole society-approved checklist. But life has its own funny way of reminding us who’s actually in control, and spoiler alert, it’s not us.
A few years ago, I had everything mapped out. I was sure of where I was heading. I had dreams that felt so close I could almost touch them. Then out of nowhere, everything just changed. Plans got delayed, people I thought would be in my life forever disappeared, and the future that once looked so bright suddenly became a blur. It wasn’t easy to accept.
At first, I fought it. I kept trying to force things back to how they should be. But the more I fought, the more tired I became, and honestly, the more miserable I felt. Then one day, I just let go. Not because I gave up, but because I realized holding on to control was doing me more harm than good.
That was when I started living.
Life is not a straight road. It's filled with bends, bumps, and sometimes detours that make no sense at all. But in those messy, unplanned moments is where the most growth happens. I’ve learned more from my failures than I ever did from my wins. I’ve become stronger through my pain than I ever did from comfort.
One thing life has taught me recently is to take things one day at a time. You might not have all the answers today, and that’s fine. You might not be where you thought you’d be by now, and that’s also fine. The truth is, nobody really has it all figured out. We’re all just trying to do our best with what we’ve got.
So, if you’re reading this and life isn’t going the way you planned, breathe. You’re not alone. You’re not failing. You’re simply growing. The pressure to have everything figured out can be overwhelming, especially with the way social media makes it seem like everyone else is living their best life. But behind the filters and perfect captions, everyone is dealing with something. Don’t let it fool you.
I don’t know where I’m going to be in the next 5 years. Honestly, I’m not even sure where I’ll be next year. But I’ve made peace with that. I’m learning to enjoy the little wins, appreciate the small moments, and trust the process, even when I don’t understand it.
Life is not always fair, not always beautiful, and not always kind, but it’s always moving. And so should we.
Maybe the lesson is not in the outcome, but in the becoming. Maybe what really matters is not how perfect our lives look from the outside, but how deeply we live it from within.
If you’re still standing, still trying, still showing up every day, that’s more than enough.
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