This is my answer to "WE81 post topics: design and create" and you can also join this challenge here. I also want to use this opportunity to say thank you to @galenkp for these questions because they always open my mind to think.
The question I will be answering this week is option four which says;
Show and tell us about something creative you personally do and share a photo of it. It might be artwork, cooking, music knitting, candle-making Lego-building, or even writing; it doesn't matter what it is as long as it's creative and something you personally do. Tell us what's involved, why you do it, how long it takes, and so on. Showcase your creativity.
For me, I feel like my biggest form of creativity is through my writing and I write most days because writing is the only way I know how to express myself and no matter what I am going through, it always makes me feel better.
When I write, I don't care about time and it could take minutes or even hours as long as I am with the right pen.
I have been writing for almost 10 years and even though I wouldn't say I am amazing at it, I love it and that is all that matters to me because when I start writing, I am in my own world and nothing can hurt me.
I will be inserting some things below which I wrote in the past that I haven't shown to anyone and I hope you like it.
Attachment,
I hate this word, I hate the feeling of loving or needing a human-like air to your lungs because that is how it feels to me and you know the worse part of being attached? Well, it is how unreliable humans are, so flaky, so uncertain.
So what happens when you are the only one that holds things together with this person you are attached to and the hook that keeps your relationship is attached to your skin just like you are attached to this fickle human being?
Will you pull it apart and make yourself bleed or will you stay and hurt forever?
The only solution for me is pushing everyone away because no one can ever be your hook if you never meet them.
My uncertainty in life
I often ask myself the question "what am I doing here",
The feeling that I shouldn't be in certain situations or places has always been inbuilt and even though I try not to listen to my pounding heart, I always feel my soul leaving my body at those times where I feel uncertain.
I guess it is my body's way of telling me that that I don't belong in this world and just maybe I might be an alien lost in the universe.
These were written last year at a time where I felt very vulnerable and it was to me my purest form of writing because my emotions were very raw so I hope you enjoyed reading them.