During this pandemic, it has been particularly difficult for all of us, specially in the Philippines where we are still healing from all of the diseases that have entered our nation. I continue to use medications to treat my depression and anxiety. I believe it would be beneficial as well to let all of my overthinking out by having a legit and genuine or formal apology post to this community as I want to continue my healing process as well as owning my mistakes. I am deeply sorry for what I have done during those times.
I am julstamban and also a former hive member, First and foremost, I made this apology post so that I could fix my mistakes and start over. Additionally, This is the link to a letter of apology I wrote five months ago.@julstamban/an-apology-letter-to-you-hive-community .
This is probably my first public apology post here on hive but let me list down first my violations in this platform/community on which I violated the following ( I reposted my old artworks which I posted on steem couple of years ago and also having alt accounts). I am deeply sorry for my mistakes, I am not expecting to have a second chance here on hive but I just want to clear these stuffs out of my mind as I am currently on a therapy on which I am having severe anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am experiencing this for four years I think, and it reach to the point I don't want to live anymore.
I am not trying to get your sympathy or anyone on this platform, what is wrong is still wrong and I'll own mistakes, I had a conversation with @adamada regarding this public apology. I am not asking for forgiveness either I just really want to get these thoughts out of my head and I think this is one of the first few steps for me to get better and be back to my normal self.
Sorry for the trouble, problems and all @hivewatchers , @spaminator .
I will add the links of where I abused the rewards by reposting my old artworks and without giving source to the reference image which is also a clear violation of plagiarism;
@julstamban/the-little-prince-with-his-friend-rose
@julstamban/monster-inc-s-mike-or-water-color-pencil-artwork
@julstamban/saitama-of-one-punch-man-or-using-sta-pigment-liner
@julstamban/black-ink-drawing-1-or-stealth-black-sanji-of-one-piece-anime
@julstamban/a-sketch-of-a-friend
@julstamban/ball-pen-scribble-1-or-scribbling-what-s-on-my-mind
@julstamban/genos-of-one-punch-man-or-using-sta-pigment-liner
@julstamban/anime-semi-realistic-sketch-1-or-monkey-d-luffy-of-one-piece
@julstamban/fubuki-of-one-punch-or-using-unipin
@julstamban/our-pet-cats-photography-and-their-stories
@julstamban/monster-inc-s-mike-or-water-color-pencil-artwork
@julstamban/my-digital-artworks-collection-using-online-sketch-software
Here are some of my alt accounts before which violated the hive rules of having multiple accounts
REINTRODUCTION:
I want to introduce myself again, I am @julstamban or juls for short.I am a civil engineer by profession and 29 years old, however right now I am preparing to run our landscaping company. In addition to tracking or overseeing the tasks, I also provide our clients with the 3D perspective. Since I was a little child, I always loved the arts. I even entered various sketching competitions at my school and placed in them.
I learned a lot from my mistakes and i deserved to be punished by hive for that which I cannot post for more than a year. Again I am deeply sorry for what i've done I am hoping for your kind consideration I just want to reclaim myself as a human being and as well to start over again. I promise to follow all the steps and necessary procedure. Thanks @hivewatchers for this chance.