Living every day is surely something we have to battle with, and it's not something so easy to keep overcoming the unknown challenges life has ahead. This is because we are not always prepared for the unknown. If it's possible that we can foresee the future, whether it will be a happy day, a good day, a bad or a sad day, then we would have prepared beforehand.
This week has been somewhat rough for me, my expectations in which I just want for myself, something we just can't tell or explain to even those closer to us. The anxiety, fears, tears, setbacks, challenges, and a lot more. It is always a new day every day.
As a minimalist, I have been trying my best to make sure I don't have more loss on my end. But it's just something inevitable, and I finally get to know it's just a part of life itself.
Waking this morning, the third day of the week. The aspirations, the motivation I gave myself before I could go to bed yesterday. I have tried as much to prioritize my health and my existence as important because only a cup that is filled can pour out for others. But an empty cup has nothing to offer. This connotes my reason to remain stronger than ever.
I woke up so ill. I have been expecting it to show up at the beginning of the week. But I was still trying to stand strong, waking up to everyone's new day challenges. I felt so weak, stressed, but who will help me take over if I should let it go?
It has been so hectic as a self-employed farmer and an entrepreneur who has been trying to make ends meet, not settling for any form of excuses for unemployment opportunities or lack of jobs. It has not been an easy decision for me.
Only if we’d gotten the support we needed, then things would have been much easier. But when you have to consider all things and efforts you put into your business, and in the end it's either you cut even or run at just a minute profit far away from the margin you should get. This is something so discouraging, and most youths have used that as an excuse to pack off.
We should have stable electricity, this is something almost every entrepreneur needs. No doubt, if we have a stable source, then it will be extremely fun diving into many things at a time. But for the past two months now, we’ve not had our bulb lit up at all.
Yesterday, they finally brought it for us, and I knew the amount of costs and stress I had undergone when it came to fueling the generator and then using it for my work. Despite how stressed I was, I felt like having 24 hours of sleep. But I was just daydreaming.
I started working even at midnight just to make sure I take advantage of the light because if I don't relax and rest, then there is a cost I will pay the next day. I could save myself the cost of two days if I stayed up that night. It's a sacrifice I had to make as a minimalist.
Just a few minutes into finishing up, they took away the electricity, and even up till now, they have never brought it back again. And only God knows when next they get to bring it again. Opportunity comes but once, and once it shows, the best is to grab it so as not to regret it.
If I weren't mindful of my decision and decided to follow my mind despite how stressed I was, I wouldn't have achieved what I had yesterday and have today as a day to relax.
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