I do the same thing. It helps me immensely. The thing is, depressing music with depressing lyrics actually makes me feel better. I'm not sure exactly why or how, but it does so more than happy, uplifting music. I guess that's just one of those things that makes no sense, but is what it is. I try to do what I can to pull myself out of it but sometimes it lingers for a while and I'm left to fight it, but I always win, even if I get demotivated and feel down for extended periods of time. Thank you so much for the comment and the suggestions/support. It means a lot to me during times like this!
RE: Struggling with depression.