Change. Change comes to mind. You want change for others and also yourself. Have some things down in my life too. But I choose not to talk about those. Just share the good stuff and seek the good stuff. As far as your friend that drinks.. ..maybe it time to say no. You don't want "that" around. May be better to not make excuses to let that energy around you. Have a great time with the girl in your bed. Maybe she will be better energy than you friend that drinks when he comes over. Lay the ground on such a rule as no drinking. It seems important to do so.
Wonderful that you went in on (STEEM) to help others. Find things to help that help you and are more on the path that you want to be on. Many of us seem to be finding challenging times upon us. Wish you all the best.
Seek good fortune, for good fortune always is.
RE: here we go. another 500 words on how i feel