Sometimes for no reason, you feel this intense energy around you and you feel heavy on your heart. Something similar I have been feeling since the last few days. I feel very heavy on my heart chakra and my solar plexus keeps giving me some impulses. I cannot figure out why it's been happening. On and off I have been hearing some disturbing news and probably that's been playing on me and then guess the full moon always plays its role in amplifying the state.
To look at it from the outside nothing is wrong. I am having a good time in my life, but yet there are many things happening in the background, like my Son's court case, and some family property matters, and the last few days mom was unwell back home. And there are many good things also happening at the same time. It's kind of leaving me confused as to how to react to all of these situations. I want to celebrate all the good things that are coming to me and at the same time, something is pulling me back, saying hold on. I feel some moments where I am gripped in lower vibrational fields. All of it together has been playing on my mind in the background leaving me a little disoriented.
It is a fact that when the energy around us is intense then we may find ourselves also overwhelmed and stressed out. When I calmly think about it, I do understand that these are all the problems of the mind which kind of keeps multiplying the more you give energy to it and probably the same is happening to me right now. I feel like there should me a time lapse for such moments, and we can just skip them getting on to the other side of it.
I have been doing my meditations regularly and it is helping me to keep in balance but then there are moments when I keep tripping, especially when I keep hearing about the chaos in the outside world somewhere my inner-peace gets disturbed. I have feelings of quitting everything and going away in a land where there is no chaos and only peace, where there is no one who will fight for power and money. A place where I can profoundly align with the spiritual energy of the Universe and feel that every moment in life is grace and a miracle of inherent goodness of the life process itself.
After a certain point in life, you do not wish anything more than just peace of mind. I wanted to share my feeling and emotions today in words because sometimes it becomes difficult to express it to the people who are very close to you. They might think I am out of my mind, because the way things are going in my life, the person on the other side would feel how lucky I am to be living these moments, and yes actually I am. At the same time, I do not want to suppress what I am feeling and may be this is my dark side, but I would like to confront it. As I always say it's the most difficult to control this monkey mind and probably that's what it is for me now. The energies around are playing on me.
As of now I need to strengthen my boundaries and boost my confidence to feel myself again, then no matter what energy comes my way.
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