I ate my late breakfast, the last meal that I had yesterday was when we got back home from my dialysis late in the morning but I ate the rice meal twenty-two minutes past 2:00 PM and did not eat anything after that.
Now I had my breakfast and I also considered it as my Lunch and dinner. I would maybe eat some toast this this evening but maybe I won't and wll just set my next meal tomorrow.
I would really lose my appetite right after my meal because of the Cinacalcet that I am taking which is why eating in-between dialysis days is just a struggle, like a chore that I have to do in order not to get hungry or lose much weight anymore.
I am not inclined to eat in time nor get to eat just because it is time to eat. Now I am just eating because I needed to and it is like an intermittent fasting in that way.
Well i do not need that much calorie anyway because I am only confined to my room all the time. There isn't much physical exertion that I am doing that would require much energy. Plus I do not have the necessary energy to do things at this point but praying that I will regain my strength back.
I do not regret anyway not eating like normal people does if it is the compromise that I have to take because of the side-effects of my Cinacalcet which now makes a good progress for my pain issues.
I can endure this things that is happening in my life, I just needed support because I cannot do it all alone, I needed people who can show love through prayers so that my goals would continue to give light that I can reach and make it happen in the future.
Anyway I did not chose this kind of eating habit, it is just I have to listen to my body because it doesn't always want to do what I wanted it to do because it is being subjected into a lot of testes and hardships. I just needed to feed my body in order for it to just live while I am waiting for good things to progress more so that maybe later it will get to enjoy life again.