My life was flipped upside down, and all I could do was to Keep the Faith.
The Lore
I was looking for great tunes when I came across an inspiring video. Or basically, it juggled my memory, I mean eventually they tell the same story many told before it was even captured in The Gospel of Mary.
Anyway, I saw lessons I have lived and this is my story.
My Story So Far
I am not going to talk about everything I already said, I am not that old that I start repeating myself. If you want to start at the beginning click Start!
It´s never too late to start walking toward divinity or to those allergic to religious references, enlightenment.
Last week that walk dumped me way deep into the bowels of hell on earth.
Mʏ Pᴀᴛʜ Tᴏ Dɪᴠɪɴɪᴛʏ & Eɴʟɪɢʜᴛᴇɴᴍᴇɴᴛ -Test 4 & 5 - Having Faith In The Unseen In My Darkest Hour
The concept of hell is very earthly, very human one might say.
Hell is not the religious or mythological depictions of fire and brimstone, a "human" hell is frequently described as:
Isolation
Utter, endless loneliness, where one is cut off from all meaningful connections, love, or understanding. The feeling of being entirely unseen, unheard, and above all forgotten.
Regret
A perpetual state of dwelling on past mistakes or missed opportunities, unable to forgive oneself or undo what has been done. The torment lies in knowing what could have been but never can be.
Monotony
A life devoid of change, passion, or purpose. The idea of eternal boredom or being trapped in a repetitive, meaningless cycle can feel unbearable.
Unfulfilled Desires
Craving something intensely such as love, peace, recognition, or even basic needs, yet never being able to satisfy that desire.
Powerlessness
Knowing you have no agency, control, or ability to influence your circumstances, trapped in a situation where you can only watch as everything deteriorates.
Fear and Shame
Living in constant dread, humiliation, or insecurity, exposed to judgment or ridicule without reprieve.
The Long Road Out Of Human Hell
For those who took the previous steps with me, those items sound very familiar.
Fear and Shame, I touched those in Chapter One. My fear of not being good enough and the Monotony of going in circles. The life one who is not able to take off the Mask is convicted too.
Regret does link nicely with those Unfulfilled Desires, it´s what is ahead for those who did not face themselves and did not find the sound of silence.
Because in silence I find direction, I find what truly matters to me.
Silence shows me my true purpose and not only my human flesh desires.
Once I let go, there was no more room for regret.
I hardly had a choice but to follow my desires, be open to receiving directions on how to fulfill them. There was no room for regret because I was already on that road out of hell.
Isolation & Powerlessness those are so last week.
All control was taken away from me in a single day, I was isolated from everything that I considered my world.
I had no option but to let go, to accept and keep the faith that this was my lesson and at the end of the tunnel I would come out more whole than I went in.
That meant I had to face the next test.
6. The test of surrender
I am a project manager, or at least that is part of what I do for a living.
My work is to plan, control all possible outcomes and mitigate the risks.
Why, better How could you ask me to give up control and accept the flow of the universe?
We humans love control, we have this need to control, or at least think we are in control because deep inside we know we have no control.
Control is an illusion, we are highly limited talking monkeys unless we surrender.
Stop resisting and start flowing.
Trust in the greater plan of the universe and stop controlling, stop resisting.
Align yourself with the universe.
Let go of control and be like water.
I am...
I am struggling...
I am letting go and gaining control...
I am warned there are many fake prophets here... those that talk the talk but still try to control their walk out of fear & greed.
My surrender was forced, my options were limited to none. Fear showed me all possible outcomes and still, I felt that whatever the outcome would be it was the one I needed to find my fulfillment.
The Duality of living in a human world, while walking on this path towards divinity gets confusing at times. To be unaffected by fear, uncertainty, and doubt is not a human skill. To keep walking and have faith requires a mindset that knows that your life's fulfillment lies ahead.
That every completed test, triggers a more difficult test and that there are very few gifts along the way.
While at the same time, I feel more at peace in my own life.
I noticed along the way that the more I listen to the sound of silence the clearer my direction is.
That Dear Reader brings me to the last test.
7. Test of Realization
This is a complex test, as it´s surreal.
That moment the veil is lifted and you see your true self, your place in the universe, because you have awakened to your purpose.
I am not saying I on purpose, because I am still trying to accept and come to terms with it myself. I am very close to my awakening, and I am aware.
Over the last few years I was shown glimpses, but only recently it feels like the veil is being lifted.
I hear the sound of silence so loud, while I still remember being completely deaf to it.
I have these moments when I feel my purpose, where I truly see there is a place for me in this universe.
At the same time, I realize I am still such a tiny speck.
There is so much more to learn, but I am here.
I left what chained me down and kept me from hearing.
I am not alone, you are not alone.
We are here!
Do Yourself A Favor And Remember
𝒯𝒽𝑒𝓎 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒸𝒽𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓃 𝒷𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂𝓈𝑒𝓁𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂𝓈𝑒𝓁𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈.
𝒯𝒽𝑒𝓎 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒹, 𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓊𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝓉𝑒𝓈𝓉𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝓁𝓁𝑜𝓌 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝒹𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎.
𝒯𝑜 𝓈𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝒷𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝑒𝓃𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉, 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒾𝓃𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒.
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Mʏ Pᴀᴛʜ Tᴏ Dɪᴠɪɴɪᴛʏ & Eɴʟɪɢʜᴛᴇɴᴍᴇɴᴛ - Who Am I Behind the Mask?
Mʏ Pᴀᴛʜ Tᴏ Dɪᴠɪɴɪᴛʏ & Eɴʟɪɢʜᴛᴇɴᴍᴇɴᴛ -Test 2 & 3 - The Sound Of Silence
Mʏ Pᴀᴛʜ Tᴏ Dɪᴠɪɴɪᴛʏ & Eɴʟɪɢʜᴛᴇɴᴍᴇɴᴛ -Test 4 & 5 - Having Faith In The Unseen In My Darkest Hour