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What Makes Me Feel Better

Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.

~― Oscar Wilde

The fact that I am alive, I have not yet given up, I kinda thought that I was never gonna get this far at some point but somehow I am still around.

The awareness that despite the darkness, despite being lost for an eternity, there is always a silver lining to it, quoting Nietzsche, in his book Beyond Good and Evil:

He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.

~― Friedrich Nietzsche

I get that some of us will never get to see the light, the darkness somehow became the normal, and I think once we stop fighting it, once we stop running away and being afraid of it and embrace it all, things change.

The eyes finally adjust, and one starts seeing the beauty in the darkness, one realizes that despite the lack of light, it is not so dark, as we we initially thought it to be...

The fact that I have improved tremendously over the last one year and a half. The believe instilled earlier on by various circumstances and experiences has only but atrophied and a new belief system replaced it.

The belief that I my life is in my hands, I may not always have control over many things, but at least if I invest in understanding myself and growing, improving from where I am currently and learning, I can be whoever I want to. I can realize my dreams.

Simply I am the sculptor of my life and experiences.

The fact that I have learned to see the learning opportunity in adversities, problems are no longer hardships, but they are chances to test my ability and opportunities to continuously improve.

The fact that I now have a better understanding of what matters and what actually doesn't.

Family even though not all the members matter, friends who you really connect with really matter, cause I think for some of us friends are more than friends, they are our family, since they are there at times when family isn't actually, and they do understand better than families do most of the times.

The let us be, without judgment and support us even when the decisions we made thinking would turn out great turn sour and we are back at the drawing board.

Having my dreams back, for a minute they were gone, and life could never be more bleak and colorless, but now that they are back and I feel like they are more big than they were before their demise, more like the rising from the ashes of a phoenix.

Life is more beautiful despite seeing things from a different perspective, but again I think that perspective is what adds more to the beauty of it all.

The awareness that no matter how hard things get, they never last forever and they do actually change. Just like the sky doesn't always stay blue, and the storm never lasts into eternity, so will the hard times get to pass.

Life is not a straight line, it a synchronous cycle, there are periods where things will be always great and then things will suddenly change.

Money gives pleasure, but I should never confuse that with happiness, true happiness is something I am still very skeptical about, probably it exist or it doesn't am not sure yet, not actively looking for it just going about my routines and probably one day I will have the encounter, because so far am not soo sure...

But still many confuse money with happiness, which only sets up people on these never ending races towards trying to make more and more thinking the more they have the more they will be happy, only to realize they are not yet where they wanted to be and the race continues.

Awareness of those things and so much more....makes me feel better!

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